You left her broken, and I picked up the debris. She was a mess when I first saw her, bleeding and crying of the wounds you caused. She refuse believe to what I can offer as you have lied too much and her fantasies of true love has been shattered. Her trust is broken as her will is shattered. First time I learned that is the day I knew, that she could never love me as she loved you. She was all sorts of mess, my type of mess.
I will forever be a shadow of the sins that you made. Anything I do that parallels your actions will induce paranoia in her. I could never make a mistake since those things will remind her of what you were then. You loved her before me and this is the punishment I have for not meeting her sooner. I am a suspect of a crime I didn't commit and a reflection of someone, I never wish to be. Funny how the one who loved her truly is the one paying for the one who loved falsely.
You received her love way before me and you have the highest degree that you could ever take from her. You were first, so I have to live with the fact that no matter how I do, I will always be a shadow of you. My efforts will always be second to you and in this game, I'm the one who's giving more.
But I am not complaining as these things happen in life. I'm happy you let go of her because it gave me a chance to show her what genuine care is. I just can't accept that did you have to break her so hard that the one who can love her true have to suffer much? But one things is for sure, I will never be you.
Because hurting her is a sin you have no reason to commit. You can blame everything in the world: lying ex lovers, family problems, or other perplexities of life but it all boils down on you. She only wanted you love her at best but you didn't. You were all the sorts of wrong with yourself and she has nothing to do with it.
Do me a favor and fix yourself before you love again. Because I feel sorry for the next guy who will love another girl you break. To you love is a sport, but believe me when not all guys are like you. We only need one and one for the lifetime.
You had every chance to make her happy and you wasted all of those opportunities. You lost such a fine gal and you have to live with that.
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