Day 42: No Idea

You've sold me the reasons to want you
I've found all the reasons that I should
You've already convinced me
But still I'm terrified I'm not enough
It's just you're too good

I know that you've been broken
I cannot fix what you're trying to forget
Go back to square one
Let's ignore the world for today
Let's leave it for another day

What if, I was meant to find you
What if, this is all temporary
What if, you're my cure
What if, you're my ailment
It's the what if's that will kill me

I never thought I'd fall in love again
I'll give you a hundred and one reasons why me
I'll only ask for a chance and nothing else
For you, I'll have an optimistic look
In this world In which I gave up long ago

I'll save up my strength to see the world won't crumble
As I try to be a part of yours
this time I decided
I'm not giving up unless I try
With you, I want to start

I won't be a social media poster
As my small and big steps are sincere
But in this pool of life I always stumble to you
thinking the perfect next word
I can't find a way through you

I wish courting comes with a pamphlet
with damn instructions and courting for dummies
I think most of the way
I'll be pretending to know
on how the hell love works