Day 363 of 366: Well

Well

Day 362 of 366: Forsomereason

For some reason
I am more tired today 

Day 360 of 366: Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all

Day 359 of 366: TIRESOME

It's tiresome

But here we are

Day 358 of 366: never settle

It's amazing 

Better than I thought 

I'm glad 

I never settled

Day 357 of 366: Spider-Man: Miles Morales

I was supposed to play this game til the end of christmas but I finished it in two days. Oh well.

Day 356 of 366: tired

Tired

Day 355 of 366: Prayers

I hope everything goes well today

I'm anxious and scared

I've yet to even sleep

I'm tired of all this thinking

I just wish this one final push 

Would still go well for me

Day 354 of 366: Screw it

Screw it 

I did everything I can

Fought with everything I have

I can't keep crucifying myself

To something I cannot control 

I leave it to fate handsal

And simply accept what it is

Day 353 of 366: walk

I wonder what life is like

If we had a good public transportation 

Day 352 of 366: Cold

It's really cold 

Day 351 of 366: Say

I guess after all these time

I have nothing to say

Day 350 of 366: Alright

In few days time

It'll be fine

Rest as much is needed

All is alright

Day 349 of 366: Old self

It'll better I know

Cheers to our old selves

Day 348 of 366: Consider

All things considered 

It all worked out 

Day 347 of 366: Easy

Whatever come, I'll take it to heart 

I shall stress myself no more

I'll do it day by day

Not thinking too much

I got my wins I'll get them more

And losses that may come 

I'll mind no more

But I hope it really gets

Better from here

Because even with 

These war earned scars

Accumulated experience 

I really wish

Even for a bit 

For things to be easy

Day 346 of 366: Whatever may come

I don't know if today

Is going to be a good day or not

Million things could go wrong

While another million

Could go right

I might get scolded heavily

Or it may not be as bad as I think

Whatever may come

Either way

I just need to live another day 

Day 345 of 366: Happy

The year is almost over

And we're close to Christmas

I got what I always wanted 

Even more than I anticipated 

And it's all good now 

I'm happy

Day 344 of 366: Better

I was a little bit anxious

But it worked out well

I did better than expected 

Day 343 of 366: PC

Finally after all the waiting

The struggle and sacrifice 

After all of that

I finally got my prize 

Day 342 of 366: Last

This will be the last night 

That I will be longing

For the thing I want

Tomorrow I will have it 

Firmly in my hands

Then I shall enjoy 

The fruits of my labor

Day 341 of 366: Piraso

Hindi ko hiling maging anino

Ng kung sino sino

Na sa akin ay nauna

Hindi ko namam sadya

Na ako ay nahuli na

At hindi agad dumating 

Sa panahon na dapat

Sana lamang

Ay wag ako gawing salamin

Ng mga taong nauna

Sapagkat ako'y walang kinalaman

Hindi ako ang nanakit

Nanloko at nandaya

Gusto ko lamang magmahal

Ngunit hindi pa yata kaya

Na ako ay makita

Na higit sa kanila

Nananatili akong piraso

Sa imaheng hindi naman ako bumuo

Day 340 of 366: Ano pa ba?

Natapos din ang dapat tapusin

Ilang buwan ko ring isipin 

Ngunit hindi dun natatapos 

Sapagkat maraming tungkulin

Kaya aking lubos iniisip

May masasabi pa ba sila?

Sa dami nang ginawa at pinatunayan

Ano pa ba ang gusto?

Nakakaadwa lang isipin

Na kahit anong gawin

Ay may mga pilit pa rin sasabihin

Nirespeto ko ang pag angat nila

Pero di nila marespeto yung akin

Day 339 of 366: Regardless, it's going to be a good day

The event will have problems 

The speakers may screech

And simply refuse to work

Resource person may come in late

Food may not meet up the standards

Some items will be lost 

Some may not properly participate

Heated arguments may come

Maybe I'll forget what is missing 

But regardless of everything 

That may go wrong

I am well damn sure

It's gonne be a good day

Day 338 of 366: Trivial

It's always the trivial things

Those I thought insignificant 

Bothers me the most

Things that should be out of my hand

But somehow bothers me a lot

Now I have to deal with it

Even the consequences 

Even though it should have been

Out of my hand

Day 337 of 366: 7th

It was pretty tough 

But here we are

It work to get here

But I'd rather do it

With you

Than anyone else

Day 336 of 366: Peace

It get better from here

I'll start deleting 

Removing and moving on

Then I'll be happy 

Genuinely happy

For the first time since

I'll get everything I want 

And all is in place

It will be better 

The worse is over now

I can finally embrace

The peace 

Day 335 of 366:

Well what do you know

I survived 

Day 334 of 366: Struggle

I can't remember when I was at peace

When I am calm

This constant rushing waves

Has been here since

And I cannot recall

When calm was the norm

And here I am now

Struggling to my core 

Day 333 of 366: Alone

I hope it heals

And all pain disappear

The anxiety of it all

And the things that bothered me

Goes away in a snap

Because the voices are still loud

I feel the walls closing in

And I know it'll be tough

But I'll manage

Because I'll do it alone 

As I always do 

Day 332 of 366: Done

At this point I'm tired

Beyond any point of consolation

The faux and facades

Doesn't work on me now

And I've reached my breaking point

I'm just done 

Day 331 of 366: Forget

I wish I could simply forget 

The things in the past 

The wrong words spoken

The hurt unintended 

But a part of me still suffers

Aa they went unresolved 

For forgiveness was forcibly took

And was not earned

I am expected

To simply forget all of it 

Not knowing how much

Hurt it caused me

So I'll move forward not speaking 

As all my communication is mocked

And soon after all of that

I'll be just another story you tell

Day 330 of 366: Resentment

I feel it growing more

As the things that happened before

Still aches for sure 

As I bleed previous wounds

I cannot simply forget

What caused them too

Needs were never met

Only met by dissident 

All the lies and deceit

Still frustrates me

Now I walk alone

With a heavy heart

Still hoping that 

Things will be better

Day 329 of 366: Little more

A little more

Just a little more

And I'll finally get that coveted prize

Just a little more

Day 328 of 366: Time

It was the best day ever

Because I spent it with you

Day 327 of 366: A day at a time

You're going to be in a better place

It'll be okay

The pain doesn't last as long

As much as you think

It will all make sense

You just need

To live a day at a time

Day 326 of 366: All about Jairah

I am enthralled how you smile

And how everything you do seems wonderful 

I love how you learn things

And the excitement you bring 

Discussing those things

It was all grey before you

And suddenly all the love songs

Were making sense again 

I wish you best on your 26th

And I hope to be with you

In every birthdays to come

Day 325 of 366: Closing in

Progress have been made 

And is moving forward

Things that were stagnant 

Finally has traction

And everything that never made sense

Is now making one

As steps toward reality is inching closer

I just need to work on

Making it work

And finally my coveted prize 

Will be finally at hand

Day 324 of 366: The right thing

I'm not expecting some sort of reward

Maybe a little compensation 

Or better yet just leave me alone

I'm frustrated because of all my trying 

I managed to fail over and over again 

I failed the connections I sought

And lost in every way possible

I've been dragged to the mud

A million times before

And when I got angry

Vented on other people

And I felt guilty about it

Sins of my past still haunt me

I wish I was a better man

Even though I was just a kid

So I guess karma plays here

But even with the disappointment 

Of losing my friends

Not giving me a chance to explain

Or even if I fail a million times

To make the connections I want

I will keep doing the right thing

Day 323 of 366: Due

Another slog of week coming

Just barely pushing through 

In light of what is coming 

I will simply do my due

Day 322 of 366: Inching

Inching closer to my goal

Closing on my desire

I'll finally get my prize

As the tears and blood

Poured into everything 

Is now at reach 

Day 321 of 366: Accomplished

Been feeling down lately

The weight is crushing down

Now that I'm better

I attribute it to a gift 

Given by someone I love 

I finished a video game

After a while now

And now the sense of accomplishment

Is all the world to me

Little wins that I have 

But is a joy to celebrate 

Now slowly I will

Earn my biggest prize

Day 320 of 366: Happy

Slowly I walk towards

The thing I always want

Acclimating to it

Is an anticipation too much to bear

But I am here now

And I will get it soon 

And I cannot explain 

How happy I am right now

Day 319 of 366: Kamit

Isang araw muli ang aking igagapang

Isang araw na ilalaan

Sa mga tungkuling nakatakda

Na sana ay matapos ko nang matiwasay

Kakayanin ang dadaan

At iraraos ang nakalaan

Ngayon ay muling lalaban

Hanggang ang inaasam asam

Ay aking makakamtan

Day 318 of 366: Isang Panaginip

Hanggang ngayon may pagluluksa

Pa rin akong nadarama

Ang sakit sa loob ay tila

Hindi nag hihilom pa

Ilang taon na rin nakalipas

Dumaan na ang maraming bukas

Ngunit nananatili ang bakas

Ng iniwan na alaala

Hindi ko na mga maalala

Ang itong tinig

At kahit anong pilit

Hindi ko na ito mawari

Ngunit isang panaginip 

Sakin ay sumilip

At bigla kang nagpakita

Na tila ika'y buhay pa

Nakangiti ka sa akin

At agad mong sinabi 

Na nagagalak ka

Sa naabot kong mga tagumpay

Ako'y yumakap nang mahigpit

At sa akin bumalik 

Ang pakiramdam ng iyong yakap

Noong ika'y nabubuhay pa

At agad akong nagising

Yakap ang unan

Umiiyak, pabalik sa reyalidad

Day 317 of 366: System

When the system is against you

Working towards your demise

Not even you hardest push 

Or your smartest move

Can nudge what is affixed

And your hardwork means nothing

As you see those who do less

Thrive more than you do

Frustrating it is

Day 316 of 366: In pain

I wish to live comfortably 

Where I wasn't applauded by resiliency

Rather there is a proper system

In which I can thrive 

Without sacrificing myself 

Where I can rest comfortably 

When I feel myself declining 

Now I am in extreme pain

But I have to power through 

As all the days I would

Day 315 of 366: Slowly

Inching closer to my goal

My long wait will bear

Slowly walking towards it

My excitement is incalculable 

Day 314 of 366: None

My body is heavy 

Everything I used to love

Becomes mundane

I feel lost

I feel...

Nothing

Day 313 of 366: Swept

Live the way you want to

And do what ever you want

Just make it within the bounds

That you will not hurt anyone

Once you made sure of it 

You can live freely 

Then whatever they will say

Will be swept with the wind

Day 312 of 366: Slowly

Barely moving on

Carrying forward as I can

Exhausted to bits 

But trying as much

Rewards will be due 

I just need patience more

It will get easier from here 

I just need a little more

Day 311 of 366: Bottleneck

It shouldn't be this hard

It shouldn't be this inconvenient 

The price of progress 

Shouldn't be ours to pay 

There shouldn't be this much

Struggle to commute everyday 

It's draining to an extent

I cant believe people have to do this

For every single day

I'm sick of it

Day 310 of 366: Sprint

It'll be tougher from here on out

I don't know how I'll pull through 

But I know I'll manage 

Like many times before

And survive once more

When I think I wouldn't 

Prayers up

Feet on the ground 

Eyes forward

Full sprint ahead

Day 309 of 366: Persistence

I hope it works well

And things go for the better

I hope at the end of the tunnel

There is a light waiting 

I hope the suffering and all

Becomes all too worth it

Because as it stands

My body can do so little 

Exhausted beyond means

Lost again all reason 

My mind and body

Is pushing the limits 

So now I pray 

Things work for the better

Day 308 of 366: Double Standard

When people see

A middle class enjoying

The fruits of their labor

They riot as if

The middle class

Sole purpose is to survive

But when those in power 

With millions

Even billions at their disposal

They applaud

As if those didn't come

From the backs

Of the working class

Because when the powerful

Earns something

Through constant exploitation 

Of the working class

People cheer

But god forbid

A working class

Getting something for themselves 

Day 307 of 366: More

It was fun

I got tired 

But the good kind

To more of these

Day 306 of 366: Rest

I'm tired 

It's all souls day anyway

Give it a rest

Day 305 of 366: Last day of October

That nightmare is over 

Disbelief in going through it

Now we face another 

And hopefully push through 

Day 304 of 366: Makamtan

Pagod ay nadarama

Bumabagsak na ang mata

Wallet ay walang laman

Mabigat buong katawan

Isip ay hindi mabakante

Sa nga ganap Hindi makapampante

Isip ay sadyang lito

Mabigat pa ang ulo

Ngunit uusad pa rin

Lahat ay iindahin

Para sa huli

Maabot ang nais kamtin

Day 303 of 366: Hold

The heavy have done and passed 

Slowly I get back up

Hungrier than evermore

I'll claw to the top once more

As the rewards for me are waiting 

I'll silence all the wailing

As tears of joy starts falling

I'll hold my prize dearly 

Day 302 of 366: Soon

Once I get my due

Hardwork finally fruits 

Grabbing those seemed out of reach 

Achieving what was only a dream

Then finally the gifts I'll enjoy

Are those I deserve the most

Garnering what is rightfully earned

And dismissing the disrespect 

Day 301 of 366: Happy Tired

It was fun with her always

The trip was always worth it

Exhausted at the end of the day 

But happy tired in the least

Day 300 of 366: Juggle

The things I need to juggle

Work I have to finish

Tasks at hand

Things I have to deliver 

My mind works in many ways

As it is all over the place

It was never seemed easy

As help is never coming

So all alone I do all of this

Exhausted I may seem

I will push through 

Because I have no choice 

Day 299 of 366: Patience

It's a special day from someone

In my family 

But due to the storm that passed

Situation we are in right now

We have little to no

Celebration can wait

As all the struggle 

Will finally be over 

We just need to be patient 

Day 298 of 366: Pursue

It's scary on what may come 

But hopeful of what is not 

Failures may have defined my past

But my future will not be as much

As I aim to carve my path

I will crawl and gnaw

Until I get the things I want

And unlike before

I will patronise no one

And pursue the things

That I love

Day 297 of 366: Safe

I have no words today

I just want everyone safe

Day 296 of 366: Pay

It will all come back to bite you 

Those careless words thrown out

Rumours spread out

Lies that were folded

As if they were cold facts

It'll come back 

Ten times more than 

Those hurtful words

And I may not see itt happen to you

Or to anyone you've recruited

But the devil gets his due

With a heavy tax

Day 295 of 366: Bunga

Papasok muli sa bagong linggo

Wala pa sa opisina

Ngunit ramdam na ang pagod

Iniisa isa ang nakatakdang tungkulin

Dahil di naman mauubos 

Ang mga dapat tapusin

Kapit lang sa dapat gawin

Tiwala sa sarili ang dadalhin

At lahat ng pagod pawis 

Na sa lupa idinilig

Ay mag bubunga rin para sa akin

Day 294 of 366: Better soon

I hope it heals

Or it all gets better

I hope myself redeemed 

Amidst all the chaos weather

I am frustrated to my core 

As they live their lives

As if nothing was done 

When they ruined mine 

But everyone will get their due 

And all the frustrations in the world

That I have carried through 

Will all be better soon 

Day 293 of 366: Pieces

I tried being selfish for a day

And somehow it backfired

So again I crawl in my cave

Offering pieces if myself 

Day 292 of 366: Burnout

I feel it close, the fire within 

That the flame is dwindling

Little sparks to compensate 

As I feel my will take away

Exhausted beyond means

But still I push through

With all the chaise within

I still have to perform

To finish tasks that keeps on piling

Despite the reward not coming

Little compensation I have 

Means nothing to the work I've done

Juggling all my tasks

Feeling weight on my back

Eyes becoming droopy

As the screen before me is blurry

I can't complain 

Cause I know no one cares

I just wish I'm compensated

For the fire within me slowly fading

Day 291 of 366: 8:00 am

I have poured so much today

My mind is in all places

This feels like a Monday 

Despite being on Thursday 

All ends well and worked out

I'm exhausted beyond relief

I'm hungry and I'm tired 

And it's not even 8:00 am

Day 290 of 366: More

I know the pain, frustration, and anger

To fight through it all

And falter in the end

To wish you could prove something 

And that situation ends

I feel sorry for you

I wish I could do more

Day 289 of 366: Like that

Frustrated I may seem

I still love her still

As she is the one committed 

To grow with me

And I cannot put a price on that

And I'm just glad

I found someone like that

Day 288 of 366: Another day

I don't know what more could I do

After all have been poured

Things happened

We simply live with it

But there is always

Another day

Day 287 of 366: Rough

It was rough in all sorts of ways

I was frustrated beyond means

I am tired, insomniac, and battered

But things needed to be finished

In the end it everything pulled through 

And all ended in grace

Tired as it seems 

Happy endings exist

Day 286 of 366: better soon

I missed a few beats

Without due notice 

Maybe I'm losing touch

And work is piling

But it'll be better soon

Day 285 of 366: Frustrating

It's all so frustrating 

To face it like this

To all that's happening

And to absorb everything 

And even I know

I have little power

To change anything at all

Because it's just me now

I hope I get better

Feel better than today

Then maybe I could step

Up to where I was supposed to 

Day 284 of 366: Mine soon

It'll be mine soon

And all I ever asked for

Success will be at hand

With all the things desired 

Then I'll hold it in my arms

Snuggly comfortably

As if it was meant to be mine

All along

Day 283 of 366: Show up

I just need to get through 

Live for another day

I'll disappoint a few

But it won't stay that way

Maybe it'll get better

And things fall into place 

But now I'll keep showing up

Til my number is called

Day 282 of 366: Sparks

The sparks have gone cold

Far from the story told

Breaking out of the mold 

The idea was simply unsold

Boundaries were stepped over

Then do it over again

As if never listened

To anything that has been said

Now I'm tired to do anything 

Even the feelings lingering

Slowly I feel them fading

As my mind is shaky

It was too much from here

And I don't know what I can bear

Maybe it was all too much

Day 281 of 366: Paglisan

Sa kagustuhang magustuhan

At gulobay maiwasan

Ngayon ko nararamdaman

Na ako'y tinatapakan

Tila wala lamang

Sa kanilang isipan

Ang aking pangangailangan

Siguro'y nakasanayan

Na ako'y gawing basahan

Kaya ako'y magsalita man

Sa kanila ay wala lang

Kaya ngayo'y galit at sukdulan

Hindi ko malaman

Saan ang paglalagyan

Nang emosyon naipong tuluyan

Marahil respeto ay malayo na

Makuha sa kanila

Kaya dapat na naming paghandaan

Ang nalalapit na paglisan

Day 280 of 366: Hantungan

Ganoon sana ang hinanap

Na sana'y tinanggap nang tuluyan

At hindi ko na pinilit

Pumasok sa pamantayan

Na alam ko na hindi naman 

Talaga sakin nakalaan

Sadyang ako lamang

Ang nagpakita

Nung pagkakataon na dumaan

Ngunit ngayong nawawala na

Ang lungkot na nadarama

O pangungulila

Tila wala na ang interes na nasimulan

Pero ganun talaga ang pagkakataon 

Kapag lumabas ka na sa kahon

Malalaman na lamang

Hanggang saan ang hantungan

Day 279 of 366: Wala lang

Hindi kami ang pinaboran

Pagkakataon sami'y lumisan

Bagamat inis ay nararamdaman

Tinanggap namin nang tuluyan

At patuloy kaming nagpapakita

Gumagalaw kapag kailangan 

At alam namin naman

Na kapag ito'y nasolusyonan

Ang pangyayari ay wala lang

Day 278 of 366: Badtrip

May umapak ng sapatos ko

Badtrip

Day 277 of 366: I'm Glad

I'm glad I'm surrounded 

By people who grew

Who broke the stigma

Grew out of cocoon

Those who refused

To live in status quo

And did not went along

Generational curse 

It was tough for them

But they did regardless

And I'm happy they are

The ones by my side

Day 276 of 366: Soon

I'll have my due

Reap all my rewards

All this pain

Will be roots

Of the success I build

But for now I will clap 

Foe those before me

Even if I scorn 

Those who used me

It will be my time soon

Patience must be kinder

Day 275 of 366: Unrewarded

It did not pan out well

Frankly, it's unfair 

On how they were rewarded 

With cost of dragging someone 

They got what they wanted

Made the claims they want

And sure enough 

They got that 

Frustrating it is 

Truly on my perspective 

Even so

It happened twice

Is hardwork unrewarded?

Are all this to sham

If hardwork is meaningless 

What the hell

AmU I doing here?

Day 274 of 366: Close

The last day of September 

I hope things end well

Everything is sorted

Fine as it ends

Then October arrives

Christmas is close

I hope what I'm dreaming of

Is close

Day 273 of 366: Claw

I hope whatever happened 

Was all worth it

And from here on out

We'll be better

And they improve

Because it was really rough

Really tough 

I don't know how I did

Claw out of that hell

But I did it anyways

And now gold is in sight

Day 272 of 366: Happy

I'm happy today

More than I anticipated 

And my only wish

Is to be happier 

Than today 

Day 271 of 366: Dearly

Slowly I'm losing

Grip of this

But good things happen

So I'll hold still 

Maybe when the time

Is right for me

I'll have what I desire 

Then hold it dearly

Day 270 of 366: Save

I hope it makes me happy

As much as I hope it would

I hope it makes my heart full

Just like the ones before

Then I'll be content 

On everything I have

And I will start to save

For the future 

Day 269 of 366: Prayers

Closely marching in

To the dream I have

Just the sheer anticipation 

Is what I crave for 

And to have that thing soon

Is something I desire

I wonder how I would hold

It in my hands

And all I ask when I already have

What I always want

Is that it doesn't crumble on my hands

And I pray and pray to never mishandle

What I was always wishing for

Day 268 of 366: Needles

It doesn't hurt as much today 

And I hope it stays that way

But I should do things

To make sure it sit still

Day 267 of 366: PC

One day I will go home

With my PC all set up

Aircon just turned on

Pristine looking keyboard 

In a room that's cold

Then I will turn on a game

And relax the night way

Day 266 of 366: 100 days away

A hundred days from now

We'll be in the final day

Of this year

I wonder who we are

And where we are by then

Am I happier?

Do things get better?

I wonder what happens

Hopefully it's for the better

Day 265 of 366: Crumble

I am in distraught 

And I feel the world crumbling 

My feet are aching and shoulders tired 

Chest as if pierced 

And breathe losing slowly 

I wish to change

I wish to run

I wish to cry

But if I did 

A lot crumbles as well

Day 264 of 366: Happy Birthday Tatay

Hindi ko lubusan nauwaan

Ano ang takbo ng iyong isipan

Kung bakit mas pinili isakripisyo

Ang lakas at kalusugan

Ngayong mas kailangan

Ka namin dito

Iba ang presensya

Na merong isang ama

Yung alam mong may sasandalan

Sa anumang sakuna

Nawala ang haligi ng tahanan

Sapagkat sa kanyang pananaw

Mas mabuti siyang pumanaw 

Imbis na lumaban

O kaya marahil pagod na rin siya

Sa dami ng kanyang pinagdaanan

Pero isa lang ang nasa aking isipan

Iba pa rin ang may amang natatakbuhan

Dahil hinahanap ko pa rin ang iyong papuri

Sa bawat tagumpay na nakakamit

Ngunit wala ka na talaga

Ikaw dapat ibininili 

Ng mga nais mong gamit

Nakakahinayang lang 

Na maaga ka nawala

Pero salamat na rin

At sa maigsi nating pagsasama

Ikaw ay tunay nag pakaama

Maligayang kaarawan tatay

Sisenta'y Dos ka sana ngayong araw

Day 263 of 366: All over the place

I wish it was easier

It healing faster

Little to endure 

Quick to recuperate 

Still lucky in aspects

Where I think I'll be doomed 

Maybe life and mindset

Both improved 

Things that didn't go well

Doesn't bother much

It's all over the place 

But isn't everything is 

Day 262 of 366: Power through

Still in pain

Still succumbing

Right foot discomfort 

Wincing every step

Sweating bullets

But things need to be done

Work should be finished 

The world ain't stopping

Because of my feelings

Anxious still

But I power through 

Because the hope in me

Is stronger than

The fear of what 

May not even happen

Day 261 of 366: Merrell Shoes

If we only knew back then 

That it was the last

I would've bought it

With my little cash

But I was a child

With nothing much

So what can I do 

But watch him fawn

Over those shoes

But now with what I have 

And what I earned

I could buy those damn shoes 

Three times over

I could even add

A cap and a shirt

Heck, I'd even buy a donut

Just for the kicks

But all the money I have 

I had, or will have

Will never send you back

I could buy those shoes now

But the wearer is nowhere in sight

So what's the point of it?

Day 260 of 366: Better

I wish it gets better 

And never I will 

Be in the same situation 

As this ever again

Because the devil does 

Strike the mind 

Of the bored ones

I'll pick myself up

Do better next time

And hopefully when it all heals

I'll feel much better

Day 259 of 366: Cycles

It's tiring really

To do things over again

And expect things to change

The cycle continues 

Because the actors remain the same

Desperate ensues

And no end in sight 

Are we to suffer over and over again

Bounded by fate

Of which we could have broken

But remains to stay the same

Day 258 of 366: Sponge

I am not meant to absorb

And take everything

All the whining 

Is getting tiring

It's exhausting to the core

As if nothing good happens

You did things to yourself

And then feel sorry

When the consequences arrive

Complaining about everything 

Every little insignificant thing

It's getting exhausting 

To be at the end of the message

Like why

Should I be burdened 

By everything 

That wasn't even my fault

It's frustrating 

Even now that I'm hurting

I guess it's selfish 

To think this way

Because I pulled myself

Out of that mentality 

But then again

Why am I being punished 

By the sins of others

Day 257 of 366: Return

Maybe it keeps coming back

Because you did nothing

In the time between 

Then and now

Maybe it's still painful

Because you never thought 

It would come back

You thought you were fine

Until you were aching again 

And until you actually do something 

It will always return

Day 256 of 366: Rainy Days

We all thought 

It was all okay

And nothing bad

Will ever happen

But it happened

All over again 

And the help we have

Is far out of reach

And now what do we do

Where do we run

When we antagonized 

Every person there is

If you all only goddamned listen

It wouldn't be this bad

Day 255 of 366: I forgot

Uhm maybe I skipped a day

Not knowing what to do

Maybe I'm overwhelmed 

With the shit around 

And maybe it's frightening 

To feel this way

But maybe it's fine

To be this way

Day 254 of 366: Know

My body is reacting 

To the disturbances I'm feeling

I feel like breaking out

And I'm constantly exhausted 

It's a sickening feeling

I struggle to cope 

Maybe I am burdened 

More than I know

Day 253 of 366: Long Ago

I guess the cycle never breaks

Because no one acknowledged 

That there is one to begin with 

It was so damn normalised 

That nobody thinks 

There was something wrong 

And now everything exploding 

Right into our faces

We look at each other

Wondering where it all went wrong

And we realized 

It was decades ago

Day 252 of 366: Stop

It's fun and all

Things were talked about

But I'm tired of thinking

Of the worse things that may happen

I wish to live in better times

Where mind

Is not my worst enemy

I wish it all to stop

Day 251 of 366: Takot

Sa di pangkaraniwang pagkakataon

Ako ay nakaranas nang kakaibang sitwasyon

Tila nanginig sa takot na marahil mangyari

Nanginginig sa mga naiisip

Na posibilidad sa bawat yugto

Tila hindi nakahinga

Bawat kasu kasuan iniinda

Ano ang mangyayari kaya

Sa sunod na mga araw

May mang yayari kayang masama

O kaya wala lang

Natatakot ako, sobrang natatakot

Day 250 of 366: Hangganan

Mga desisyon ngayo'y bumabalik

Lumang sugat na muling sumasakit

Maga nakalipas na desisyon

Mga natapos na aksyon

Ngayo'y pinagbabayaran ng leksyon

Kung sana'y nakinig

Nung una pa lamang

Hindi na sana humantong

Sa ganitong pagkakataon

Kung respeto sana ang nanaig

Wala sana ngayong iniisip

Ngunit hindi ganoon ang nangyare

Ilang beses napabigyan pa bale

Kaya tila nakampante

Sa pagsabog ng emosyon

Sari sari na ang reaksyon

Sana'y maayos at may magbago

Sana manatili kung may magbabago

Dahil kung wala man

Atin na lang tandaan

Na lahat ng tao sa mundo

Ay may hangganan

Day 249 of 366: Decades

I guess it'll never change 

Because no one wants to

Pitying oneself 

So much it's cringe 

You cannot feel sorry

For yourself so much

And still be proud

As if you bothered no one

Disappointing really

That the cycle goes

Never ending it seems

Even still

I was a child 

Day 248 of 366: Out

Maybe it'll never change

Because no one wanted to

The sense if entitlement 

Remains seeping through 

As if they should be catered 

Til the end of time

But now it's all out

Patience was lost 

They can only grieve

Day 247 of 366: Outside

It was bound to happen

The signs were there

I simply accept 

What is given

What is already there

Maybe I asked too much

Or very little of myself 

Maybe next time I won't 

Expect too much 

From things

Outside my control 

Day 246 of 366: Rainy mornings

It drips everywhere it seems 

Harshly, the wind blowing

And with all the rain

Clothes are stained

The cold is shivering

And the weather is arguing

Jeepneys are stranded

Streets are flooded

The sky remains dimmed

Even in this early morning

My pants are wet

So are my bags

My shoes are safe

Until for now

All of this happened

And I'm still in the terminal 

And it's not even 7am

Day 245 of 366: Mundane

It was uneventful it seems

But maybe the mundane

Is something to embrace 

Once in a while

The calm sea for once

Night sky with stars

A day that just passed

Is something to love

Even for one moment in time

Day 244 of 366: End of August

It was fun overall

Major bumps in the road

Have come along the way

But it was fun overall

Met new people

Discussed new ideas

Formed friendships 

Better than last year

I hope everything goes well

From here on out

Day 243 of 366: Doing what I love

Things went well than expected

I had fun in the end

Even met some new friends

And learned new things 

I'd love to do this daily

And do what I love

I hope I'll be in the position 

Where I'm doing

What I love 

Day 242 of 365: New Friends

I thought I like being alone

Isolation was my friend

But I think it was never the case

I think I never really found

The people for me

Or I never bothered looking

But what is clear

I like meeting people

Day 241 of 366: Through it all

It's lonely up here

Feeling empty from everything 

I feel like I'm lacking

But I can't explain what it is

Maybe progress feels lonely

Or maybe it's costing 

But we live with what we have

And I just need to

Get through it all

Day 240 of 366: Thinking

Anxious of what's to come 

Not sure what to do

In an unfamiliar place

Thinking of what to do

And praying for the best

Day 239 of 366: Knee Pain

Please not at a time like this

Not when things are going good

Not when everything is in motion 

Or when finally I'm here

Please not now

Day 238 of 366: Heavy

A sudden burst of sadness

Hits me all of a sudden

Like something inside was missing

And as if I am lacking something

Maybe it's my knee hurting again

Or the anxiety of going to another place

Either way I have to do things

Even with a heavy heart

Day 237 of 366: Not Planned

It was a mess on all ends

Things didn't go as planned

There were frustrating moments

But it's something I would rather

Share with you always

Than someone else

Day 236 of 366: With

It was the start of the long rest

Which I felt at best

But the anticipation of seeing you

Was all I could ever think of

But a part of me was sad

I could not explain why

Maybe it's something I live with 

Day 235 of 366: Can I?

The presssure is kicking in

Thinking can I even do it

Do the things I've done before 

And stop overthinking 

On what may happen next

And simply do what is necessary 

What is expected of me

Can I really do it?

Day 234 of 366: Annoying

I'm starting to hate this

The feeling of pressing down 

The work crushing in

Exhaustion kicking in

Lack of proper recognition 

And not being compensated

It's becoming tedious

Not exciting in the least

I just feel more tired

As work keeps piling in

It's getting annoying

And those who don't deserve

Even gets rewarded 

This sucks to the core

I hate this very much

Day 233 of 366: Still sick

Remnants of exhaustion

Lingers on me still

My back still aches

As my legs feel jelly

I still catch my breath

As I feel I'm sweaty

Day 232 of 366: Goes well

Good thing I took that rest

Albeit a bit tired still

I hope to do better from here 

And see what could be done still

Already tired thinking of the tasks

I'll simply take them one by one

And wish that all goes well

Day 231 of 366: Another day

Tomorrow is another day

I don't know what I'll see

How tired I'll be

Exhausted already

Just thinking of it

Day 230 of 366: She saved the day

I wasn't really expecting 

For anything to happen

Day seemed uneventful 

But she made it all worth it

She made me smile

And made the day light

I'll forever be blessed

To have her by my side

Day 229 of 366: a day before

It never hits the same

The excitement and all

Anticipation never mattered 

As we're all sick of the moment 

But maybe bad beginnings

Doesn't mean bad journeys

Rather the worst have already passed

Day 228 of 366: Getting Better

I can actually manage today

Body is lighter than usual

But the fatigue sets in

And I'm exhausted as hell

But I guess I'm thankful 

I have people in my life

That looks after me 

And finally someone 

Is worth getting better for

Day 227 of 366: Bit better

It was getting better a bit

But the pain sticks

The discomfort persists

And body still weak

Barely standing up

Joints banged up

Eyes heavy

Throat dry

Basically functioning

But still beat up

Day 226 of 366: Peak Pain

Everything hurts

The acid building up

Throat swelling in

Body aches all over

I was crying and twitching 

Clenching my teeth

Twisting and rolling

Will it ever end?

Day 225 of 366: Acid

A sharp pain in my chest

Crawling in my throat

Swelling of the sides

Discomfort everywhere

Tightening of throat 

Rising level of pain 

Grinning of teeth

Didn't do anything

Day 224 of 366: Meant

If I knew any if this would happen

And how things would turn out

I wouldn't have given so much

Maybe it is something 

I am bound to live with 

To offer myself so much

Only to be betrayed 

But it what it is

And I cannot weep

What is never meant

To be with me 

Day 223 of 366: Happily

I'm just grateful I don't 

Understand what they're going through

Like even with the stories said

The experience shared

Is something I cannot comprehend 

I'll live with this

Happily I might say

Day 222 of 366: Self

Nothing notable happened 

I scared myself for nothing 

And now I move forward 

And live with myself 

Day 221 of 366: Scared Anyway

It went well better than expected

Better than I fear

Maybe I should let things be

And do it scared anyway

Day 220 of 366: 5th Death Anniversary

Parang kahapon lang

Ay kausap pa kita

Kung anong nangyari

Sa basketball kanina

At kahit limang taon na

Ang lumipas nang mula

Na ikaw ay namayapa

May mga araw talaga

Na mayroon saking pag aabang

Na sa ating tahanan

Ikaw ay uuwi pa

Parang kahit limang taon na

Ang lumipas talaga

Pilit ko pa rin iniinda

Ang sugat na iniwan

Halo halo ang aking nadarama

Sa ating pinagsamahan

Sana lamang

Ay nagkaroon tayo nang

Panahon magkaunawaan

Pero huli na lahat

At ikaw ay wala na

Ang bahay na naiwan

Ay tila lumaki pa

May mga butas sa puso

Na hindi kaya punan

At mga buhay sagana mo

Na sana ay iyong naranasan

Masama pa rin loob ko

Sa biglaan mong paglisan

Tila hindi ko matanggap

Na ganun ganun na lamang

Marami pa kong mararating

Tuktok na Hindi sukat isipin

Mga rurok na hindi natin inaakala

Ngunit bigla nating matatamasa

At pag dating nang panahon na iyon

Ay wala ka

At hindi na babalik pa

Day 219 of 366: Better

Things are better now

Better than expected

May not be like yesterday

Or anything ever again

But it's better now

Day 218 of 366: Anyway

I can handle it

I know that I can

I may be shaking

Sweaty and close to vomit 

But I know I'll make it

I'm in a much better position 

Than last year in this day

And I might have to crawl

Claw my way to the top

But I'll do it anyway 

Day 217 of 366: Fight, Fight, Fight

She is not perfect in any way

She always find something to fight about

She hates the fact

That I need to sleep

Or that I need

To explain something 

A million times

Before comprehending 

She often does

Rolls her eyes

At things I do

Regardless of which

The normalcy I do it

She always laughs

At my jokes and antics

But I wouldn't have it any other way

And I wouldn't wish someone in her place

She's the best that the world can offer 

So I will love her forever

It'll be messy, imperfect, and tiring

But she will always be worth it

Day 216 of 366: All smile

I actually went out of my way

For once this time 

And did something 

To make me happy

And glad that I did

Take that risk 

And now I'm here

All smiling 

Day 215 of 366: Happier with you

To an unexpected night

Knowing all of you

From the millions fights 

We've gone through

Misunderstandings I couldn't count 

And arguments which are not sound

From declarations of love

To frustrations apart 

There's no one else I'd rather

Share my heart that flutters

Day 214 of 366: Happy National Girlfriend's Day!!!

To all the fights we had and will have

Sweet moments we'll share and forget

Billion I love yous we'll mention

Committing all to a single person

To live in the same lifetime 

In the billions of this universe existence

Is a privilege to God

I will always be thankful 

So I'll hold your hand

As they fit in mine

And we'll gladly dance

In this cosmos of ours

Day 213 of 366: Looking for

For a long time

I wish to rest my mind

And simply

Let things happen as they are

As I can trust

Every words said

Every action meant

How I wish I found it

I guess I have a lifetime

Of looking for it

Day 212 of 366: Nakaraan

Bagama't mahirap ay unti unting sinimulan

Ang mga bagay na pilit nakasanayan

Mga bagay na matagal kong pinagaralan

Ngayon ay unti unti kong kinalilimutan

At habang unti unting nababawasan

Ang nakaraang pinagbalatan

Ay sakit sa kasu kasuan

Na dala ng pagbabagong kinakamtan

At sa pagbagsak ng bawat piraso

Ng nakaraang ako

Ay patuloy kong iindahin

Ang nakaaraang aking nais limutin

Day 211 of 366: Console

Maybe it's pointless 

Nor it never mattered

The value is nothing

Compared in the long run

But it makes me happy

As if I have a purpose

So if it's useless to you

It's invaluable to me

Day 210 of 366: May masakit

At saking pag iinda

Nang sakit na nadarama

Maraming naiisip

Na akala ko'y

Naitago ko nang pilit

Sana' mawala na

Sakit ng katawan

At hindi na magbalikan

Alaalang iniwan

Day 209 of 366: Bigo

Patuloy kong didismayahin

Ang naghahangad na masama

At tuluyan silang iinisin

Habang unti unting umuusad

Hindi na iindahin

Ang anumang sasabihin

Tuloy lamang ang buhay

Bagama't may matang nakatingin

Na nawa'y mabulag sana

Dahil anumang bigat nang ipinapasan

At kahit ano pang pagbintangan

Sakin ay maraming umaasa

Kailangan tulungan sa tuwina

Kaya tuloy lamang sa paglalakbay

At patuloy kayong bibiguin

Na sana may mangyari

Na masama sa akin

Day 208 of 366: Bagong umaga

At tulad nga nang sabi nila

Ang araw ay muling sumikat na

Bagama't ang daan ay basa

Ang langit ay maaliwalas

May kaunting banas

Sapagkat unti unting umiinit

At ang umagang akala'y di darating

Ay sa atin nakangiti

Day 207 of 366: Tahimik

Sana tuluyan

Kong malisan

Ang isipan

Na lahat ay malala

Na lahat ay paguho

Na tila matatapos na mundo

Ayoko na isipin 

Ang mga bagay bagay 

Nais ko nang katahimikan

Day 206 of 366: Ulan

Sa lakas ng ulan

Hindi na magkarinigan

Takot sa bagyo

Samin ay namumuo

Naalala ko noon

Labing walong taon ang nakalipas

Bumaha sa amin

At hindi kami nakalikas

Tindi ng takot ay nanuot

Bawat bagyo at inaalala 

Lahat na gamit ay nakataas

At madalas kami naghahanda

Grabe rin pala

Ilang taon na ang nagdaan

Pero parang kahapon lamang

Nung bumaha

Day 205 of 366: "Technically"

Medyo nakakaasiwa

Pag tila nga ba

Na ginagawa kang tanga

Pilipit ng mga salita

Sabay ilalabas sa konteksto

Sa tunay na ibig sabihin nito

Sabay baluktot sa pangungusap

Tila tanga ang kausap 

Bakit kailangan

Sino ang nakinabang?

Day 204 of 366: It is what it is

I've put all things into place

And skipped ahead of the race 

And even with the myriad preparations

I find myself lost in translation 

Things I did to rush 

Was pointless too much

And with all the preemptive I made

Still now I make haste

Victim of the circumstances 

But it us what it is 

I cannot complain 

For these are the things

I need to do anyway

Day 203 of 366: Sick

I'm sick

No posts today

Day 202 of 366: 202th

Despite a few triggers

Things are better

I like how I live

And become less reactive 

I guess those demons 

Never really go away

But what we can control

Is how we live beyond

The reality 

They wish to dictate 

Day 201 of 366: Ruthless

How I wish I can be as ruthless

As you all seem to me

Spreading all these things

Which is no concrete 

You damage what you see

And ravage what you cross 

Then act as if

You were the ones hurt here

Damned if I can be heartless 

And hurt those 

Who caused me to bleed

And burn everything and everyone 

Who crossed my path

But I will never be that person

I am not the monster 

You all made me seem

And slowly I will prove that

Show you all that you are wrong

And whether or not

I get my apology 

What matters is I live 

With the truth

And may all the evil eye 

On me go blind

Sour tongues may go dry

Hurtful hands

May paralyze

As the soul you all wish to drain

Comes back over and over again 

One day truth will prevail

And till that day comes 

I will remain do my best 

To prove you all

Made a mistake

Day 200 of 366: Bigat

Medyo nakakadama

Nang bigat na di maipaliwanag

Tila walang nais na gawin

Pagod na sa dapat sabihin

Umay na magpaliwanag

At bawat paguusap

Ay nakakaubos nang lakas

Hindi ko alam ano ang nais

Ngunit malinaw lamang sa akin

Na hindi ako masaya

Pagod ay hindi maipaliwanag

Hindi ko na alam

Anong klaseng pahinga 

Pa ba ang kailangan 

Day 199 of 366: Sura

Nakakapagod pala

Kapag paulit ulit na

Ngunit tila

Ang pagbabago na

Laging inaasam

Ay malayo pa sa katotohanan

Ay paulit ulit ka pang

Pagtatawanan

Dahil hindi niya

Lubos maunawaan

Na may mga bagay 

Na sayo ay masakit

Pero sa kanya

Wala lamang ito

Day 198 of 366: Mabigat sa Mata

Pagod ay nadarama

Katawan ay iniinda

Kasu kasuan ay mabigat

Tila may nakapatong sa balikat

Mga bagay na imbis na

Sakin ay makagaan

Ay pilit pa

Sa akin ay dumadagan

Sa sarili ay natatawa

Kung paano ba

Ko lahat kinakaya

At sa pagsibol nang

Bagong umaga

Lahat ay maayos na

Day 197 of 366: Tiwala

Humihiwa ang salita

Sa sugat na akala'y nakasara

Para pang ginagawang tanga

Sa paliwanag na iba iba

Oras nasasayang

Sa paliwanagan

Kaya mananahimik na

Para sa katotohanang nais madama

Dahil bakit tila kailangan

Alamin bawat pangungusap

Mahirap maniwala

At tiwala'y nasisira

Day 196 of 366: Sementeryo ng mga namatay na pagsasama

Bawat lapida

Ay may pangalan

Ng mga lubusan

Kong pinakisamahan

Hanggang ngayon tila 

Ay iniinda

Ko pa rin ang kanilang 

Pagkawala

Malamang may katagalan

Pa akong magluluksa

Pero ano bang magagawa

Nangyari na

Day 195 of 366: ulit

Hindi naman tumahimik

Ang mga boses sa isip

Madalas pa panghinayangan

Ang mga bagay na nagsiwalaan

Ngunit walang magagawa

Kung lahat ay aking iinda

Kaya maghahanap na lamang

Nang mga bagong libangan

At sana sa paghahanap

Ay may makitang liwanag

Day 194 of 366: Sabado

Unti unting nahahanap

Ang kadahilanan

Ang pinaglalaanan

Ng lakas at katatagan

Bawat araw na lumipas

Ay ikinakasaya

Bagama't may kulang 

Hindi na iniinda

Hindi na ako

Nabubuhay para sa sabado

Day 193 of 366: Sa tahimik

Sa tahimik

Ako ay payapa

Walang iniinda

Walang inaaalala

Hindi nag aalala

Kung may nasabing mali ba

Or hindi umaabot talaga

Ang mga salita

Hindi rin ako dismayado

Sa paligid at mga tao

Wala naman akong inaasahan

Dahil wala naman pinagsabihan

Dahil sa katahimikan

Baka mas lubos akong maunawaan

Kaysa sa mga salita

Na binabaluktot lamang

Day 192 of 366: Hangarin

Sa liwanag na hinanap

Na tila walang kapaguran

At sa pangarap na hindi akalang makakamtan

Sa kabila nang mga ininda

Lumisan at nawala

Nandito ka pa

At mananatiling dito ka rin

Hanggang sa maabot

Ang mga hangarin

Day 191 of 366: Lala

Bagama't bahagya

Na pumabor ang tadhana

Ang kinatatakutang malala

Ay maliit lang pala

Ngayo'y nahihiya

At nadadala

Dahil imbis na nalampasan

Dalawang beses ko pa nga 

Siya pinagdaanan

Kahit sa realidad

Hindi naman ganun kalala

Day 190 of 366: Lampas

Marahil hindi ako ipinanganak

Upang maunawaan ninuman

At lakat nang pagkakaunawa

Sakin ay iba iba

Siguro'y mali na ako'y umasa

Na aking kapasidad umunawa

Ay mayroong tutugma

Dahil nakikita ko yan lahat

Bawat hibla ng pangungusap

Bawat hinimay na parirala

Lahat nang hindi tumutugma

Aking napupuna

Ngunit hindi na ako magsasalita

Bahala na saan mapunta

Walang kaalaman sakin ang lingid

Masugid lamang akong mag iisip

Day 189 of 366: 7.7

Aaminin ko naman

Na hindi maganda

Ang pagsisimula 

Ng linggong ito

At aminadong dismayado

Medyo palyado

Inis masyado 

Kaya napalinis nang todo

Pero hindi ito indikasyon

Na susunod na linggo ay malala

O kaya naman plakda na agad

Dahil may kagandahan

Sa mga munting dahilanan

Maliit na bangga lamang

Ito sa malaking plano

Kaya ako ay kakalma

Ay magpapadala sa agos

Day 188 of 366: Linis

Nakapaglinis

Kahit papaano

At akalain mo yun

Nakaluwag sa pakiramdam

Day 187 of 366: All on you

You always knew what you had

And was complacent 

That things will stay that way

You stepped over her many times

Complained when you got called out

Made excuses many times

Always figuring out

What you can get away with

And now she woke up

Seeing you as the loser she is

You act as if love 

Had never walked your doorstep 

When in fact

It has always

Been staring you straight in the eye

But you refused it

So now you sit alone

Desperate and longing

For the million chances given

You decided you still needed

A millionth and one

The funny thing is

This is all on you

Day 186 of 366: Reyalidad

Kahit may iniinda

Tuloy ang arangka

Damang mas lumalala

Ngunit kinakaya

Para lamang

May mapatunayan

Na ako ay higit

Sa sinasabi nila

At lahat nang boses

Pilit naninira

Ay walang halaga

Laban sa reyalidad

Na aking ginagawa

Day 185 of 366: Tulog

Hindi ipinaagkait

Ngunit kulang susumahin

Na kahit anong pilit

Kulang pa rin sakin

Magdamag nakamulat

Gising ang diwa

Sana maaga makauwi

Para tulog ay mabawi

Day 184 of 366: Liwanag

Kumalma nang kaunti

Ang aking isip

Sapagkat ang mga kinatatakutan

Ay isa isa kong nalampasan

Bagama't mayroon pang

Suliraning dapat ayusin

Mariin ko silang haharapin

Para sa kinabukasang para sa akin

Day 183 of 366: Mabigat

Mabigat ang mata

Sa katawan may iniinda

Braso may kabigatan

Masakit kasu kasuan

Tulog ay higit sa otso oras

Ngunit tila minuto lang lumipas 

May makirot sa bunbunan

Antok at lumalaban

Sa panahong delubyo ang higit

Inaatake ang katawan ng isip

Sa gitna ng kapaguran

Hindi ko na malaman

Anong pahinga ang kailangan

Day 182 of 366: Mentally

Like a victim you played 

Despite not knowing the game

You spoke as if you knew

But you know all but the truth

Never did you bother 

To seek the truth after

And you simply acted

On what was said

A shame you are

To all like you

Then again speak what you want

And the world may turn against me now

Spit while you still can

For when the tables have turned 

I will show you the cruelty 

That I undeservingly received

Then in the greatest moment of crisis

When all of you need me

I'd look down on you

And watch you burn.

Day 181 of 366: Tired

I feel empty

Lacking energy

Of all the things

That one was exciting 

Shows don't excite me

And games bore me

I feel lazy and tired

It's all coming back

I feel heavy

I don't know

What do I do

Help

Day 180 of 366: Eternity

I guess we'll never grasp

What we always want

And we always wait

For what we should have

Then in time we hold it in our arms

We clutch to it to never leave 

And then we'll see our happiness

To eternity

Day 179 of 366: Anticipation

More than half a year passed

And a a another half to come

I've left what's not desired 

And try to live outside the demise

Although still I bleed

From the woes last year 

I try to give

Myself, the kindness he deserves

And as I anticipate my ultimate prize 

I lie in wait

And hopefully after all the suffering 

The goal in the end

Will all be worth it

Day 178 of 366: Switch

Maybe it's time I stop the chase

Of those who have long run away

Maybe their friendship wasn't worth it

Because if it was, it wouldn't be that quick

Maybe I get some explanation 

Or even a chance to defend

But when all those are forsaken 

You know where you stand with them

So I let go of those who gave up

And never will I look back

But remember in your time of need

I will never switch

Day 177 of 366: Frustrate

After all I've heard 

And words that's said 

Rumors spread

And endless dread

Did anyone think

One would still

Have the energy

To form a smile

And mean it

Because if you had heard

Things that were said

About me that wasn't true

I assure

It would frustrate you

Day 176 of 366: Loose

Maybe if I let loose a little bit

Maybe things would've been easier

I will not think as much as hard

And maybe I have a peace of mind

Things are not bigger as they seem 

And I wouldn't be losing any sleep

I want to be that person

One who does not think too much

And lives the life

As freely as he can be

Day 175 of 366: Her name

If perfection had a name

It would start with letter J

And it would end in an H

Even though it's not needed

Maybe it would have an R

And two A's for safety

And it would be the name

I've long to say "I love you"

Ever so dearly 

Day 174 of 466: If you told me a year ago

If you told me a year ago

That I would be this happy

I wouldn't have believed you

And probably scoffed at the idea

I won't believe 

I'd smile like this

Or even be with someone

Who's worth those many heartbreaks

I wouldn't believe you

And say you're merely bluffing

To make me feel better

But I was

And still am

Happier than a year ago

Weathering the perfect storm

Then I met this lovely gal

Whose smile made my life worthwhile

Oh to love

And be loved like this

I didn't think it was possible

Only a year ago

Day 173 of 366: Seeing you again

Every hour, minute, or second

That I long to have you near

Is an hour, minute, and second

That I totally feel

Every passing second

Is a torture in existence

Longing for your presence

Your love is my subsistence

Slowly as the hours will pass

Close you will be by my side 

And when the time I hold you in my arms

I'd hug you as if

I only met you for the first time 

Day 172 of 366: If I knew love could be like this

If I knew I'd fall like this

I would bother to mess

Around those unserious

And meet those who 

Simply broke

What I hold dear

Maybe I could've been

More hopeful that I wish

And maybe the world

Isn't as bad as it seems

To find her in this world

Which I'm sure forsake me dear

Is a blessing I hold dear

And it is my duty

To make her feel

The greatest thing

She is

Day 171 of 366: Foot Pain

I hope it heals 

And never come back

When it throbs

May it never return

It may never disturb

Anything in me

And may this pain

Be thel past there is

Day 170 of 366: Different

Maybe I wish things were different 

And they all went well

They all didn't give in

On whatever rumor there is

Annoying it may seem

I just live with it 

I wish things were different 

I miss my friends

Day 169 of 366: Long Vacation

Maybe I never moved on

And all the parts that healed

Were simply repressed within

Still I grieve your loss

Looking for every piece of you

In every corner of this home

Still I feel like one day

You'll simply enter the gate

And you we're simply on a long vacation 

I wish that was the case

Day 168 of 366: Sleep

I'll take the longest rest 

That I will ever have

So I'll make the most of it

By sleeping all day

Day 167 of 366: Now

I feel falling harder now

As I never been before

Maybe I'm scared 

To lose what I held on to

Might disappear 

I can only wish

For a better now

Day 166 of 366: A Kid Again

Still I bear the weight of waiting

Six months from what I am wanting

Slowly I'll acclimate to what I desire

Which makes it all worth it to time

Then I'll hold it in my hand 

As if it was always mine

Use it to my heart's content

Enjoying what I want

This is the weight I must bear

Patience is the name of the game

But once Christmas salary comes

I'll be a little kid again

Day 165 of 366: Traffic

Frustrating I sit here

Waiting for the light turn red

As the light in the sky bleed

Still I sit in agony

Then the hot air hits my face

Along with the humid space

I feel the sweat dripping

As the vehicle starts moving

In motion of the jeep

The air became cold suddenly 

And those near went out

But still I sit about

The space remains cramped

As my leg feels clamped

As my left leg die

It was all in my mind

Then another stoplight happened 

So another stop started 

But it was over quicker 

As my mind wander

Day 164 of 366: Asam

Ngayong meron na akong kakayahan

Abutin ang minsang inaasam

Bakit nanunuot ang agam agam

At tila hindi ito makamtan

Siguro nga naman

Sana lang naman

Aking maranasan

Na nahahawakan

Ang pinakaaasam

Day 163 of 366: Hangin

Siguro isang araw

Kaya ko na talaga

Na ang pake ay mawala

At iba'y di iniinda

Na hindi na ko nagiisip

Ano na ang tingin sa akin

At anuman ang kanilang sasabihin

Ay tila lista na lang sa hangin

Day 162 of 366: Liwanag

Galit nanatili

Timpi kinimkim

Wala namang kasalanan

Ngunit pinagbabayaran

Nawalang mga kaibgan

Akin nang pinabayaan

Basta hayaan akong manatili

Sa aking sarili

Malinaw saan nagmula

Mga sugat na iniinda

Bagama't nagpakilala

Bakas pa ang pangungulila

Sabay tingin sa kinabukasan 

Na aking inaasahan

Liwanag sa kadiliman

Kailan mararanasan

Day 161 of 366: All along

Maybe happiness

Is right around the corner

And I never noticed 

Because I never

Even bothered to check 

Maybe all this time

All the love in the world

That I was looking for 

Was inside me

All along

Day 160 of 366: Maybe for once

Maybe for once

I wanted to be appreciated 

Not because other were lacking

But because it's just me

To be appreciated for simply existing 

Not because of what I can provide

To not repeat myself 

For a hundred million times

Before I could be understood 

But a boy could dream

Day 159 of 366: Liberating

And when your body lies

At the end of the day

The silence surrounds 

And darkness lurks

With only a glint

Of light from phone 

Lights the void of your room

Why does it feel

So damn liberating

Day 158 of 366: My Home

I want to be alone

I want to find a secret place

Where no one else have known

I want to dance on the grass

And feel the seas breeze

And eat all the fruits and berries

That I will ever see

I want to embrace the quiet

Where everything but the wind is silent 

And all the comfort in world

Are within my own accord 

I want that solitude 

Embracing that fortitude

And when I embraced being alone

I'll come back to you, my home

Day 157 of 466: Matapos

Sa pagkagat ng dilim

Paligid ay nalimlim

Kapaligiran ay tahimik 

Bahagyang liwanag ay sumilip

Siguro'y nakasanayan

Trabahong tuluyan

Hindi na iniinda

Basta lahat matapos na

Day 156 of 366: Panahon

Lahat ng pawis na idinilig ko sa lupa

Ay hindi pa namumunga

At bawat dugo na tumagaktak

Ay wala pang kapalit na pumapatak

Bawat pagod at puyat

Ay hindi nasusuklian sapagkat 

Alam ko pag ganito

Hindi ko pa panahon 

Day 155 of 366: Again and again

They never go away don't they?

Those voices in your head

Telling every sin

You have committed 

And every action

That never came to fruition 

Those rumors that aren't true

Still heavily bothers you

And all the lies told

Still in your mind hold

I want them out to be honest 

And live from the farthest

Maybe start all over again

Day 154 of 366: Happy First

To all the meals we'll share

And all the things we'll care

Movies we've yet to see

And opinions we'll disagree

This is the first step to forever 

As I live beside you tender

This is the first of many funerals

Of the people that we will be

May our love last 

Like the smile on your face

And I am will forever do my part

In keeping it all the same

Day 153 of 366: Inda

Nakalabas ng bahay

Nawala ang isipin

Lumuwag ang paghinga

Nabawasan ang iniinda

Day 152 of 366: My People

In all the pain I endured

Problems that procured 

Often I complain 

About life being unfair

On how I was mistreated often

Of those I never wished harm

And those sins I've done

Repented I did much

I wish to find my people

Those who will me

Without reservation

Those who will continually choose 

Whatever I do in my life

Who'll defend my name often

Even in my absence

Day 151 of 366: Sarili

Bagama't nais kong umunawa

Hindi sakin ito naihaba

Marahil isanh sumpa

Na hindi ko makamtan

Ang binibigay kong tuluyan

Sa paghahangad kong maunawaan

Higit pa silang nagulumihanan

Sapagkat ang magbalik ng galak

Sa kanila ay hindi sumuswak

Kaya ngayon sarili ko muna

At hayaan ko kayong madismaya

Marami akong bibiguin

Sa pagpili ko sa aking sarili

Day 150 of 366: Wala na lang masabi.

Ako na kukuha ng sobrang trabaho

At tatapos ng proyekto

Gagastusan ko na rin yan

Matapos na lang 

Hindi na ako magsasalita

Kahit sakit ay iniinda

Kahit may mga bulungan 

Na ako ang pinagpapaksaan

Inyo na lahat ng papuri 

Wag na magtira sakin kahit kaunti

Kayo na mga magagaling

Kayo na rin ang hindi pwede galawin

Hindi na ako magsasalita 

Sa mga nakikita kong hindi maganda

Kahit bwisit na ang pakiramdam

Sige akin na lang yan

Akin na lang lahat

Sapagkat walang umuunawa

Mga bagay na sakin nakakabahala

Inyong pinagsasawalang bahala

Kaya akin na yan lahat

Wala kayong matirinig saking reklamo

Hayaan nang ganyan manatili

Wala na lang kayong masabi

Day 149 of 366: Ako naman sana.

Bilang lumaking panganay

Laging lider ako nasanay

Bawat kapatid ay tinitingnan

Nililingon bawat pinsan 

Palaging nag aalala na kaibigan

Kahit mabilis nila akong iwan

Kahit nga biglaan

Ay pinagsisikapan

Tumayong padre de pamilya

Sinisikap lipunin

Ang mga piyesang naiwan sakin

At higit pinapangalagaan

Sinumang mahalaga

Kahit sa trabaho ganito ako

Masinsin sa bawat proyekto

Kinakausap ang bawat tao

Nang may ngiti sa mukha

Kahit bakas sa nginig ng kamay

Na wala na akong maibibigay

Kumbaga sa bawat aspeto 

Na dumaan sa buhay ko

Mariin kong tinututukan

Inaalagaan, at pinapahalagahan

Wala akong reklamo, totoo

Hindi lang mawala isipin ko

Minsa kaya, paano naman ako?

Kasi minsan gusto ko rin

Ako naman ang lilingunin

Ako naman sana muna

Ang magpipira piraso

At kayo muna manatiling buo

Sana man lang merong sumalo

Kapag ako ang binagsakan ng mundo

Ako naman sana ang kamustahin

Kung kaya ko pa ba

At ako naman ang kalingain

Dahil hindi ko na kaya

Isang araw lang naman

Isang araw na hindi ako, ako

Isang araw na ako naman ang aalagaan

Ako naman ang lilingunin 

Ako muna hindi gagamit ng utak

Wala akong reklamo

Sa mga responsibilidad ko

Mariin ko silang niyakap

Ang akin lamang sana

Sakin naman may kumalinga

Kahit paminsan minsan.

Day 148 of 366: All is pain

No words for today

Because things lapsed

And all is pain

Day 147 of 366: Return

I will return after a long rest

To see if I can still do my best

And hopefully finish what should be done

And succeed on what I should have

Day 146 of 366: All will be fine

It'll be fine eventually 

The bus will come

And the storm will pass

The flood with drain

Rumors wil stop

Fires will be put out

The voices will silence 

And the morning will come

The sun will shine again

And they all will be dead

Day 145 of 366: Wince

It never made sense to me

But I lived with it

I was so concerned on making 

Everyone around me happy

I lost myself sincerely 

And now I lie in bed

Wincing in pain

Catching my breath

Looking for a purpose

Wishing one would come

Day 144 of 366: Abuso

At ang inipong pahinga

Ay nauwi nga sa pahinga

Katawan inabuso

Ngayon sa kama maghapon

Hindi pinansin 

Mga iniinda sa katawan

Kaya ngayong nagkasingilan

Daming inirereklamo

Day 143 of 366: Happy Birthday Bunso

Para sa hindi nagsasawa

Magpasaya ng pamilya 

Kahit ano pa

Ang pagdaanan niya

Pinaka matibay

Na taong aking kilala

Na kahit anong dumaan

Ay kaya niyang tumawa

Kahit yata maabot ko

Ang pinaka taas na antas ng talino

Mananatiling mas nanaisin

Kung paano magbukas ng puso

Kaya sa ikadalawapung kaarawan

Nawa'y ika'y masaya

Kagaya na iyong nabibigay

Sa aming lahat

Day 142 of 366: Paggaling

Sana bukas maluwag na paghinga

At sa katawan wala nang iniinda

Sana ilong ay di barado

At sa paa wala na masakit masyado

Maraming babalikang trabaho

Nawa'y mairaos nang malugod

Matatapos din lahat ito

Day 141 of 366: Nairaos

Nagpapalitan ng ubo

Tila nahihilo

Sa init at lamig ng panahon 

Bumigay din katawan ko

Bahagya na makatrabaho

Sadyang nahihilo

Malayong lugar pa ay dinayo 

Nairaos naman ang proyekto

Day 140 of 366: Pakiramdam

Mabigat ang dibdib

Ulo masakit

Paa'y napilipit

Bawat sulok

May iniindang sakit

Umiikot paningin

Katawan ay masakit

Pahinga ay nais

Ngunit di maaari

Bahala na pasubali

Ano mangyayari 

Day 139 of 366: Mulat

Walang gana sa kahit ano

Hinahanap dahilan

Maraming gawain

Ngunit hindi kaya tapusin

Nauumay sa sitwasyon

Pagod sa kasalukuyan

Maraming hinahanap

Hindi alam ang nais matanggap

Nakatitig sa kawalan

Kausap ang sarili

Nais lamang matulog

Ngunit mulat pa rin

Day 138 of 366: Tanggap

Sa lugar na kahit san lumingon

Walang pabor na tugon

At sadyang nanantili

Lamang sa isang tabi

Ito naman ay nakasanayan

Kaya hindi malaman

Bakit nababaguhan

Siguro dahil umaasa

Ako na may maiiba

Ngunit wala talaga

Ito ang itinakda

Tatanggapin ko na

Day 137 of 366: Natatapos

May natapos naman

Kahit papaano

Ngunit hanggan saan

Kaya kakayanin na ganito

Madalas lito

Iniisip ko nga madalas

Kung may pinapatunguhan

Ba talaga

Mga ginagawa ko

Basta alam ko

May natatapos naman ako

Day 136 of 366: Gulo

Yamot, inis, pagod

Irita, pagtataka, balisa

Sa init ng panahon

Sari sari nadarama

Sa daming iniisip pa

Lalo lang naguluhan

Day 135 of 366: Gusto ko pa matulog

Mapungay mata

Katawan mabigat

Likod masakit

Pagkilos ay pilit

Nahihikab pa

Limang minuto 

Bago may tumunog

Pero ayoko na muna

Bumangon

Day 134 of 366: Yung late ka na nga...

Yung late ka na nga nagintay pa ng pasahero

Tapos tumitigil bawat kanto

Medyo mabagal pa magpatakbo

Sa pag iintay naubos oras ko

Sabay masisiraan pa bahagya

Na naayos naman agaran

Hirap talaga pag sa umaga sasabak

Masasabayan pa nang nagbabatak

Kaya late na ako bahala na

Flag ceremony pa naman

Day 133 of 366: Happy Mother's Day

Para sa mga

Sakit ay hindi iniinda

At nagagawa pag tiisan

Ang lahat nang kakulitan

Para sa hindi nagsawa

Magmahal at suporta

Para sa hindi sumuko

Ano man binigay ng panahon 

Sa lahat nang sakripisyo

Luha at dugo

Na ibinuhos para lamang

Kami ay magabayan

Kaya salamat sa lahat

Dahil hindi namin alam

Kung san kami ngayon 

Kung wala ang gabay niyo

Day 132 of 366: Mainit nang Sobra

Nakahiga sa kama

Walang gana

Sa mga bagay na

Noon nagbibigay saya

Pakiramdam ay wala

Sobrang init pa

Maalinsangan pakiramdam 

Tila naiinis na

Nababagot sa isipin

Kahit walang dapat aalalahanin

Naiirita kahit 

Walang nangungulit

Naumay na siguro

Sa ikot ng mundo

Na hindi pumabor

Sa akin 

Sa kahit anong 

Pagkakataon 

Umay na umay sa ganitong

Pakiramdam

Kailan kaya

Makakadama nang saya

Day 131 of 366: Hintay

Paguwi mo sa bahay

Pagkatapos ng trabaho 

Pag katawan ay humimlay

At napa pikit ka na sa pagod 

Sino kayang 

Naghihintay sayo?

Day 130 of 366: Jeep

Ansakit ng ulo ko

Nahihilo 

Gumuguhit sa ilong

Siya ba'y naligo?

Ang lala 

Ganito ba talaga

Aaaa

Day 129 of 366: Dabog

Sa lahat ng pagod 

At pawis na naibuhos

Sana naman ay magbunga

Sana ay may kahinatnan

Sana bawat sakripisyo

Pagod at perwisyo

Ay mauwi

Sa mga ngiti

Dahil kung hindi

Magdadabog ako

Day 128 of 366: The Other Road

And once I reach the mountain top

And I could see all from above

I wonder what kind of view

Would I be looking to?

It may remain a mystery

But for me one thing is certain

I would look on the road unbeaten

The one I didn't travel 

Where I hesitate over

And chose another 

But I look forward

To the day toward

Where I never would

Look at the other road

Day 127 of 366: Pasts

When all the lights

Have left my eyes

And for a while

I forget to smile

Even when I can't 

Bear all the hurt

As all the traumas of the past

That I thought would never last

Persists to come back

Please know that

I tried to fight

Day 126 of 366: Wala muna

Walang salita

Ang tutugma

Sa aking nadarama

Kaya wala na muna

Talata

Day 125 of 366: Sleep

Maybe, just maybe 

Things will get better 

Or not 

Who knows

Day 124 of 366: Okay

Those voices 

Never go away really

In the presence of boredom

Anger and even happiness

Resolved feelings return

You never really heal

You simply move on

As you become the museum

Of everything 

You thought was okay 

Day 123 of 366: Peace

Let it all burn

Into ashes as it seems

Broken bridges 

Never bothered me

And when all of this is done

The ones who should leave

Have finally left

Then we can live

At peace with ourselves

Day 122 of 366: Sa ngayon

Basta masaya ako 

Ngayong araw na to

At sa pagkakataong ito

Yun lamang

Ang mahalaga 

Day 121 of 366: Nakaraan

Maliwang ang kita 

Nabgay ang tiwala

Hindi nagpabaya

Kaya sa wakas nagbubunga

Nawa'y tuloy tuloy

Ang usad at daloy

Wag nang babalik

Ang mga nakasakit sakin

At sa unti unti kong pag angat

Sa tagumpay na pagtapat

Nawa'y maiwanan

Na aking nakaraann

Day 120 of 366: Grieve

A part of me died today

Regardless what I feel about it then

I'm glad it's something I let go

And I will never go back to it no more 

But I guess it's normal to grieve

Of the things we don't want anymore

But was a big part of you

Once a lifetime ago

Day 119 of 366: Sight

Regardless of what will be said

Or what will be done 

I'll stick close to what I know

As lines have been crossed

You will never hear

Anything from me

As long as you leave me alone

But cross my line

Touch even a strand

Of my hair

You will regret

That you crossed my sight

Day 118 of 366: Switch

And when things are falling into place 

You land flat on your face

And all the things that worked out before 

Comes crashing down once more

Just when you thought

It's over for the storm

Another surge comes right after

And takes all what you love 

And now broken and bruised

As a source of happiness flew

It'll take some time to recover

What I lost in this moment 

Day 117 of 366: Paligid

Maraming bumabagabag sakin

Na akala ko tapos na

Mga kaganapang iniinda pa rin

Na akala ko naghilom na

Dahil sa paulit ulit kong karanasan

Naging bilanggo ako ng nakaraan

At hindi lamang

Bunga ng aking isipan

Dahil kita sa kapaligiran

Mga kinatatakutan

Day 116 of 366: Quicksand

Walls closing in

Eyes seeping

The land slowly

Sinks my feet in

Every place I go

Reminds me of long ago

Where I have been punished

For others sins

And the sky refuse to shine on me

As I stand here 

Caught up in the bleeding

Now every step I take 

Is a bomb ticking

Though I wish I could be free

From what is expected of me

I guess this is the price I pay

For chasing something

I thought I was ready

But maybe I am ready

But not in the way

That I can swallow it all

And even amidst my doubts

I would like to carry on

But now every move I make 

Is a reminder 

Of the things 

I didn't even do

I guess it bothered me

More than it should

Day 115 of 366: A Skipped Day

I guess it'll never be perfect 

Nor go the way we want

This minor stumble

Won't stop 

What we start

Day 114 of 366: Badtrip

Nabura yung tula

Na una kong sinulat

Bago itong isa

Kaya bahala na

Kung anong mahihinuha

Dito sa

Kasunod na kinatha

Basta ang sinabi ko dun

Ay tungkol sa anino 

Ay ayoko

Mamuhay sa ilalim ng isa

At nais kong makilala

Bilang ako

At Kung sino talaga

Day 113 of 366: Versions

I do exist in many forms

Living in different versions 

A great blessing to some

And a hassle to a few

Because despite all the things I do

Dissidents will come

As the path I trek toward 

The success upward

Will consist

Of stepping a few feet

And so I accept this diversity 

That I exist in this world differently 

I only wish someone to see me

As a person that I am today

And not as a projection that they have 

I am not an amalgamation of the past 

Nor the beacon of the future

I am simply the present 

And I hope that's enough 

Day 112 of 366: Capacity

As all the pieces fall in place

And we have what we chased

I will hold it firmly 

But not to the point 

Where it feels choked 

I will caress it well 

Hold close, so it never leaves

And the day I wither 

And leave this world forever

May she be the reminder that I have

The capacity to love

Day 111 of 366: On the Seventh Day

And on the seventh day 

After all the creation he made

God went on to rest

To show that even and almighty being

Can reach his limit

So why do we act

As if we're boundless

Tiredness is inexistent 

Maybe if the highest above all

Know what rest's worth

Maybe we should also

Day 110 of 366: Sobrang Inet

Paggising ay basang basa

Ng pawis sa aking kama

Sa may parteng kwelyo

Nanunuot ang banas at perwisyo

Maalinsangan sa pakiramdam

Tila nakakainis gumalaw

Matindi pa rin ang kainitan

Kahit lumubog na ang araw 

Sobrang banas 

At malagkit sa pakiramdam

Araw ay mababa o mataas

Damang dama ang alinsangan

Sabay kami pa ay yayabangan

Kesyo noong kanilang kapanahunan

Sanay silang babad sa initan

Kung di nila binutas ang mundo

Hindi naman mainit na ganito

Dapat sa mga ganun magsalita

Ialay, para naman umulan

Day 109 of 366: Validation

Chasing the applause

Has always been frowned upon

And in any cause

Should be done with no clause

We do it for the people

The ones we serve and more

But sometimes we want more

What in their for ours in store

I'd like to receive some praise too

And learn the good things I do 

Because for me it's a stream

Of works with no meaning 

To get the validation 

That I'm doing something right 

Is sometime I crave for 

Not so often in this life

Day 108 of 366: Bahala kayo.

Sa sulok ng silid, magisa

Habang napapaligiran ng mga

Taong alam mo na

Hindi ka mabibigyan ng unawa

Madalas sa aking isipan

Mga nakaraang karanasan

Mga nakalipas na dahilan

Kaya mas niyakap ko kalungkutan

Dahil sa ilang beses na tawag

Na ako ay magpaliwanag

Ni isang hayag

Hindi ako naunawaan

Mga patawad na kalahati

Magkalimutan na lang bakasakali

Bawat patawad ng tao

Laging may kasunod na "pero"

Kaya kinulong

Ang sarili sa bahay at trabaho

Pero kahit saking pag iisa

May nasasabi pa sila

Kaya't iwanan niyo ako

Sa sarili kong mundo

Kung di mo kayang umunawa

Dahil hindi ako projection 

Ng mga bagay noon

Hindi ako sila

Lalong di ako iyon

Day 107 of 366: Unbound

The horror of curiosity 

Will always kill me softly

Like dull knife entering my body

It kills me very slowly 

Maybe I do wish to know

All the love you had before

But again in contempt

It make me think

You want them again

And I am merely a placeholder

Someone else in a different vessel

That in a room full of the ones 

That has been part of your romance

I fear you would not

Even give me a glance

But these are the my demons 

Not for you to console

Things I have to work on

So that we can get a move on

On so I suffer in curiosity 

I prefer this solemnity

Rather than the pain of knowing

I would rather subvert learning

I don't know what kind of reassurance 

That I can have at chance

But today I embrace 

What I fear to face

Healing was never a race

Simply in a dark place

But when I do get out

I can give love unbound 

Day 106 of 366: Mga Multo

Walang salita

Ang magdidikta

Nang nadarama

At iniinda

Multo ng kahapon

Na kala'y natapon

Biglang umahon

Muling naghamon

Minsang nalampasan

At kinayanan

Ngunit sa beses na pangalawa

Di ko alam hanggang saan

Ang kakayanin indahin

Ano pa ang kaya tanggapin

Sakit sana tanggalin

Ayoko na muli ito isipin

Day 105 of 366: Mekanismo

Sa pag mulat ng mga mata

Pagod agad ay nadarama

Bawat sulok ng katawan

Ay mayroong iniinda

Init ng panahon

Sa balat tumutuon

Habang nag papaypay

Pagod ay sumasabay

Sa dami nang inaalala

Wala nang maalala

Ni isa sa kanila

Sarili'y kinikilala

Kung akk ba'y tao pa

Or parte na lamang

Ng isang malaking mekanismo

Isang maliit na turnilyo

Na bumubuo sa makinang

Tinatawag na mundo

Nawala na ba

Ang pagkatao

At ako'y umiikot

Lamang sa utos

Gawain at trabaho

Sana naman sa mga nangyayari

Ay magkaroon ako ng silbi

Hindi lamang para sa mundo 

Kundo para sa sarili