Fear is no stranger to mine
It kept me safe all the time
It helps me predict the million possibilities
And here I am now, in crippling anxiety
I used to think I need everything in control
In every situation I'm in, I can't let go
All future scenarios are mapped in my head
And now I'm here, lying in dread
From there I grew suspicious and bitter
Thinking that things could not get better
Because despite knowing the worst case scenario
I have no means to prevent the impending doom
And sometimes things do work out in the end
I only made myself suffer in head
But there is no relief when reality is better than fantasy
Because in my mind I am already exhausted
In this constant cycle of thinking
Analyzing, briefing, and pattern searching
Then slowly in my thoughts I drown
And face this world, with a big ol' frown
Then slowly in my journey towards healing
I realize that the world is not only for beating
Yourself up for the things that might and didn't happen
It's how you live and value family and friends
No longer I will chase people who leave
I will never crave those who never valued me
I will focus on the ones I have
I will focus on those deserving of love
Then slowly I let go of the things
That simply did not work out for me
They were not meant to be had
Regardless hard I try
What is meant for me, will come for me
It will never excuse or slip my fingers
I just need to let things be
And wait while everything comes together
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