Day 273: Ang Araw at Buwan

Matatapos na ang buwan ng septyembre at papasok na ang oktubre. Sabay na ang pagpatak ng ika sampung buwan sa papatapos na taon. Isang araw bago dumating ang bagong araw ng bagong buwan. Natapos ang tatlumpung araw ng septyembre at magsisimula na ang tatlumpu't isang araw ng oktubre. Dumating na nga ang araw na iiwan natin ang buwan.

Kung iisipin ang buwan at araw ay dalawang bolang nagbibigay ilaw sa kalangitan. Ngunit ayon sa Agham, ang araw lang naman talaga ang nagbibigay ng liwanag at nakikihiram lamang ang buwan dito. Sa malalim na palaisipan ang mundo ay nababalot sadya ng kadiliman, na ang natural na estado ng ating mundo ay madilim at kaya lamang lumiliwanag ay dahil sa malaking bola ng apoy sa kalawakan. Ano kaya ang sinasabi nito sa atin bilang tao?

Marahil lahat tayo ay nasa natural na estado ng kadiliman na naghahanap ng araw upang maliwanagan ang buhay natin. Lahat tayo naghahanap ng araw, na para maliwanagan ang buhay natin at sa parehong paraan ay ninanais natin na maging araw sa buhay ng iba. Iilan lamang ang gustong maging buwan na humihiram lamang ng liwanag at lumalabas pagkatapos ng araw.

Ngunit kahit magkaroon tayo ng araw sa buhay natin ay hindi maitatanggi na lumulubog ang araw pagkatapos ng isang araw. Kaya masaya tayo na may buwan na pumapasok sa buhay natin na nagliliwanag sa mga panahon ng kadiliman at ang araw ay nagliliwanag naman sa iba. Pero mahirap umasa sa isang pinagmumulan ng liwanag na nanghihiram lang sa iba.

Hindi maitatanggi na lahat tayo ay may nakilala nang buwan o araw sa buhay natin mapa kaibigan man o karelasyon. Pero sana lahat tayo ay makahanap ng araw na magliliwanag ng buhay natin dahil ang mga taong tulad ng buwan ay nawawala rin pagdating ng araw.

Pero may araw man tayo o buwan sa buhay natin. Kailangan natin unawain na kailangan natin tumayo sa sarili nating mga paa at magsilbing liwanag sa sariling buhay natin. Nang hindi nangangailangan ng liwanag ng iba.

Day 272: Sariling Bilanggo

Minsan kapag nakukulong tayo sa kahon ng ating pag iisip ay nalilimitahan ang mga kaya nating gawin. Maging sa trabaho o pag aaral sa oras na ikulong mo ang sarili mo sa isang bagay o naging komportable ka masyado ay mahirap nang umusad pa dahil nasa pagiisip ka na na hindi mo na kayang humigit sa kung anong meron ka. Ikaw na mismo nagbababa sa sarili mo at nagalagay ng tali na wala naman sa simula.

Kaya kahit nakatali sa kadena na tayo mismo ang nagbuo, pilit natin iginagapang ang mga bagay na tingin natin ay tama para sa atin at pinagsisilbihan ang mga taong naglagay ng posas ating mga kamay. Ang hirap maging alipin ng sariling isipan at maging bilanggo ng nakaraan. Pero mas mahirap kapag ipinaramdam pa ng ibang tao.

Siguro ito ang dahilan kung bakit may mga taong nananatili sa mga relasyon na mapang abuso. Hindi natin makita ang halaga natin bilang isang tao dahil masyado na tayong pamilyar sa ganoong ganap kahit gaano na itong nakasasama sa atin. 

Pag pumasok sa isang relasyon madalas mangyari ito kung saan ang taong may kulang sa sarili ay inaakala na kaya itong mapunan ng iba. Kaya kahit anong pang aabuso sa kanila ay sinasalo dahil pakiramdam nila hindi sila mabubuo nang wala ang isa.

Sikapin natin alisin ang pagiisip na ito. Hindi ka kailanman isang piraso ng bubog na kailangan ng iba upang makabuo ng maganda piguro sapagkat ikaw na mismo iyon. Wag kang magpabilanggo sa isipan na wala kang halaga at wala ka nang ihihigit pa. 

Matuto kang huminga ng malalim at sabihin na: "Mahal kita, pero hindi ko maibibigay ang puso ko sayo nang nakaposas ang mga kamay ko." Hindi naman mali ang magmahal, mali lang gawing bilanggo ang sarili dahil sa pagnanais na makamit ito. Matutong mahalin ang sarili

Day 271: Proper Time Management

Ang tamang time management ay isang suliranin ngayon sa kabataan at kahit sa mga nagtatrabaho na. Hindi nila alam ang uunahin dahil nga tumatambak na ang gawain sa isang bagsakan. Minsan kasalanan ng isang tao dahil ipinagsasawalang bahala niya ito hanggang sa huli, minsan nasa paaralan at trabaho na rin dahil sa di maipaliwanag na dahilan nagkakasundo sila na ipagawa lahat ng bagay nang walang oras na namamagitan. Yung tipong isang malaing proyekto tapos ipapasa sa loob ng tatlong araw. Pero kadalasan kasalanan na rin naman ng kumikilos.

Sino man ang may kasalanan nito, hindi maitatanggi na ang karamihan ay hirap dito. Hindi ako makakapag bigay ng suhestiyon sapagkat isa ako sa mga taong may sakit na rito. Pero kung iisipin, hindi lamang tayo sa paaralan o trabaho mayroong problema sa 'time management'

Minsan sa larangan ng pag ibig ay hindi tama ang pag aayos natin ng oras. Minsan nasasakripisyo ang relasyon para sa propesyon at minsan baliktad naman ito. Sadyang may kailangan kang isakripisyo para umusad ang buhay mo.

Pero kapag humantong na sa malala at hindi na kayang ayusin ang relasyon. Yung tipo bang nagkakamalabuan na ba. Doon papasok ang 'proper time management' yung panahon na pilit ka pang lumalaban gamitin mo na para mag move on. Sa mga panahon na pilit mo pang tinatapalan ang matagal ng may lamat, ay gamitin mo na yung panahon na yun para buuin mo na ang sarili mo uli. Sana sa panahon pilit mong tinitibag ang mga pader na nag hihiwalay sa inyong dalawa ay bumubuo ka na ng pundasyon para sa sarili mo. Minsan hindi naman masamang sumuko at mahalin muna ang sarili.

Ayusin ang 'time management' sikapin unahin ang sarili

Day 270: Badtrip Magopen

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na bagsak na bagsak ka na tapos naghanap ka ng isang tao na pwede mo paglabasan ng galit mo sa mundo at maarai sanang kasama mo magbuhat ng bigat ng mundo kaso bigla niyang sasabihin sayo:

"Ako nga eh"

Kelan pa ba naging kumpetisyon ang nararamdaman ng bawat isa sa atin? Ang hirap kasi sa ibang tao na kailangan may masasabi sila o kailangan nilang maramdaman na nakahihigit sila. Minsan kapag ganito ang nakakausap mo, nakakapang sisi na nagtiwala ka pa. 

Ang hirap ipaunawa sa ibang tao na hindi pare parehas ang lakas ng bawat isa at hindi dahil mas malakas silang tingnan ay mas matatag na sila. Lahat ng tao ay may kahinaan at may pagkakataon na tutumba sila. Isa pa yun sa mahirap eh, kapag matagal kang matatag tapos tumaob ka biglang baba ang tingin sayo. Hindi mo alam kung may pake pa sila sayo o gusto lang nila maramdaman na mas mataas sila eh.

Mabuti sana kung manggaling ito sa ibang tao, eh minsan nagmumula pa to sa mga tao na mahalaga sayo marahil pamilya o malapit na kaibigan. Hindi ba nila alam ang pakiramdam ng umasa ka na may makakasama kang magbuhat ng bigat ng mundo para lang malaman mo na dagdag pa sila rito. 

Kelan ba naging kumpetisyon ang damdamin? Sa mga ganitong pag iisip kaya mas pinipili ng iba mapag isa. Ayusin naman sana natin. Matutong makinig, hindi yung lugmok na nga yung tao tapos kukumpitensyahin niyo pa nararamdaman nya at ipaparamdam mo pang mahina siya dahil nalampasan mo ang maaring pumatay sa kaniya. Hindi ko mahihingi na maging sensitibo kayo pero sana matutong manahimik na lang. Dalawa ang tenga ng tao at iisa ang bibig, ikaw na umunawa nan,

Day 269: Going Forward

We strive for best
and never settle for less
in battles we win or learn
but it is the knowledge to be earned

the fights that may come
may be hard and impossible
they may fall, some
but we will stand through it all

we fly, or run or walk or crawl
no matter what is required
and you have given it all
make sure that the direction is only forward

the battle that come in paradise we dreamt
they said it's difficult, this is what they meant
then in all blazes of glory
let us win this and live to tell the story

Day 268: Chocolate Frappe

Chocolate has never taste so sweet
especially when it is given as a treat
In a place new to my eyes
in a place that made my heart fly

the moment I entered the door
I was invited by the pleasant odor
There I fell in the place I saw
but it wasn't all that, I knew

Even before I took a sip
and before in the place I slip
before the chocolate seduced me
there was a beautiful lady beside me

The sweetest chocolate drink
was finished in just one blink
Brain freeze stopped me to think
but it was my heart which sinked

Day 267: We don't deserve dogs

Have you ever seen a dog? Those fluffy creatures with cute eyes and ears. Some are bigger than the others but whatever shapes or sizes they have, they are just so adorable.

Our dog is a japanese Shitzu and she is really kind and obedient. She prefers vegetable over meat and does not eat foods that are two days old. She may be a bit insufferable at times and she may smell but I really love her.

Can you imagine a life without dogs? I can't. They are just so pure and loyal that hurting them feels bad and sure there are some stray ones that are violent but just some kids, they are just misguided. 

This world is too cruel for these dogs to live. We don't deserve them but they love us, and that is saying a lot.

Day 266: Blue Bird

The things you never expect to come are the best ones when you experience them. Like these awards I had earlier this day. In amidst the requirements needed to pass and the readings needed to be be studied, I guess you can always count on the little victories along the way.

Day 265: Sarili muna

Mahalin muna ang sarili bago ang iba

sapagkat kahit makuha mo siya

ay paulit ulit mong tatanungin na

kung karapat dapat ka ba sa kaniya

walang masama sa pagmamahal sa sarili

at walang masama kung ito muna lagi

wag lang aabot sa sukdulan na

sarili mo na lang ang inuuna

sinasabi ko lamang 

at wala kang kakayahan

magmahal kung sa sarili pa lamang

ay hirap ka nang tugunan

bago mo isalay ang puso mo

siguraduhin mo munang buo ito

dahil kung sira sa iyong mga kamay

paano mo siyang maayos na maiaalay

Day 264: Craving Familiarity

The thing about human beings is that despite the want for change is that they crave for familiarity and this is supported by Abraham Maslow's Hierarchy of needs. As in the second part from the bottom is safety needs which means that we will always look for something familiar. This is the reason why SM malls are popular no matter where you are in the country or how kids love Jollibee even when they grew up. It became a business but it grows deeper than that.

Have you ever noticed how difficult it is to sleep in anywhere besides your home? in campings or other people's houses we have a tendency to stay awake as our brain are perceiving this new environment as a threat. We will always find something that is familiar to us and that is human nature but this very human nature is the reason why some of us are broken beyond repair.

Even the people who hurt us and the situations that only damaged us will always be a place to run into, not because you wish for pain but rather despite the perceived repercussions you will always see this person or scenario as familiar therefore limiting yourself to grow. Heck, this could damage the nation of this sense of familiarity is always sought after especially when it is sought collectively by the masses. 

There is no easy solution for this as science had dictated it. But if you wish for the familiarity of peace to come, learn to stand your ground. It will be a difficult road to lose the need of familiarity but you also have to realize that progress and innovation comes from discomfort.

Day 263: Ibigay mo ng buo o kaya wag na lang

Magmahal ka nang buo
o wag ka na lang magmahal ng ibang tao
wag mong pangakuan ng buong puso
kung balak mo ibigay ay kalahati lamang nito

kaawa awang isipin
ang taong buo kang mamahalin
ay bahagya mo lang iintindihin
bahagya mo lang papansinin

mahirap magbayad ng buong halaga
lalo na kung di kayang suklian ng iba
pero kahit naman masuklian mo siya
malayong malayo ang isang libo sa barya

kaya payo kaibigan umiwas na lang
kung di buo ang damdamin sa napupusuan
nanahimik yung tao sa sarili niyang mundo
bigla namang guguluhin mo

Day 262: no reason

We are warriors fighting our own battles
and children who will hide in sign of rattle
one is not completely a person
when you lose everytime with no reason

Day 261: Learn to listen and shut up

Some people can always spit out advices even when they are not asked to. Funny how not being in the situation gives you the license to speak more than the person who is in crisis itself.

That is how toxic this culture is, they do not wish to listen rather they only want to give advices despite not learning the truth and hearing every side of the story.

They wish to be praised and heed intelligent but they don't know how destructive their actions are. There will be times that a person will only wish for a shoulder to cry on or they know the solution but they rather let it out of their chest first.

Shut up okay? learn to listen when people trust you and stop giving out of the blue advices which are not even asked in the first place. If you cannot listen, just go. Rather than being helpful, you are only poking the scars and scabs of the person. Learn to shut up.

Day 260: Fate

She entered the room ablazed
and her cheeks were sparkling red
with lips of scarlet touch
she loved the attention too much

Her crimson black hair
waved silently into the air
then her pale skin started to shine
this is a girl who is just too fine

then she approached me
with my heart escaping my sleeves
her sweet voice started to echo
and the light before me becomes a shadow

"are you alright?" she asked curiously
"yes, why do you ask?" I answered nervously
"your face is red is that fine?"
"you cause this to me" I said inside while I just nod my reply

She smiled and left my sight
Feeling I lost all my might
there's the girl who stole my heart
Even after a long time I guard

if this is love, it is too soon
maybe in the right time I will swoon
Maybe in time if she is the one
destiny will decide what fate will come

Day 259: Baggage Theory

Everyone you meet in life will come with a baggage in which brings them down. Making them thoroughly imperfect and will always have flaws no matter how perfect you perceive them in the first place. This baggage will be with them so you should learn to live with it, especially of you wish to be with that person for a long time.

But here's the catch. You, yes you the dork reading this, has also a baggage in which will bring you down and make you seem impossible to love. This baggage may be a physical trait, a past experience or personal issue. While seeing everyones baggage, you realize that you are lifting your own all this time.

This baggage have various sizes depending on each person and how they affect the person also varies. You just have to deal with it. But the good news is that every baggage can get lighter when you found someone who will lift it with you.

Day 258: Shackles

We are prisoners of our own thoughts
as we are binded by the shackles of fear
anxiety and overthinking are our cuffs
wishing out thoughts were only clear

opportunities have let go in the past
and things have lost in the process
it pains to know how long this last
as we lose things that we fail to caress

I guess we all fight our own demons
and for mine it is fear
the fear of rejection
will always appear

Day 257: One more episode theory

Overview: A person will continue convincing himself/ herself in the process of pursuing a temporary goal. They all say the same: "Worth it"

Origin: TV series and anime enthusiasts will insist on "one more episode" for the night and end up finishing the season or series only realizing that they have been lying to themselves all along, unproductive all day and stayed up too late.

Day 256: Wait for it to fade

She has the eyes you wish to gaze
which color is you can never guess
her velvet lips smiles are true
and can lighten up, even when I'm blue

Beyond the childish facade
I fell for her hard
She smiled at me and laughed a bit
and the rest you know, is history

Since I saw her, she was all I could think
But I never wish for my feelings at risk
I will only slowly go away
and wish for my feelings to slowly fade

Day 255: Darkest of times

The darkest of times did finally came
along with the blood of rain
the streets are filled with mourning souls
while the heroes of us, in their grave they roll

Progress was nowhere in sight
as we crashed, when we thought we're in flight
The Avenue of broken promises
is now a dumpster of the hope of the masses

A distraction is offered in time of crisis
starving people are disregarded for politics
concerning only personal dispute
while the entire nation dilutes

Will we see the sun for tomorrow?
or shall we wait for the passing of sorrow
I wish for tomorrow the blood lays to rest
and we don't have to wait for the sweet release of death

Day 254: "Ang Pag-Ibig ay para sa matapang"

Dahil hindi lamang dugo

ang maaaring dumanak sayo

sasabay ang luha ay bubugso

kasabay ng pagkadurog ng puso

Lalamunin ka ng iyong takot

at duda sayo ay babalot

sa mga bagay na di ka sigurado 

kahit ilang beses ka niyang ginarantisado

Masaya siya, dahil lahat naman ganun sa simula

makakaramdam ka ng kilig sa tuwina

ngunit sa pagharap na sa mga problema

iisipin mo, kung pinili mo ba ang tama

dahil ang pagibig ay di lang saya

mayroon diyan na dadaan ka sa dusa

kahit sa iyo na nga siya

iisipin mo kung karapat dapat ka ba

Kaya walang kang karapatan

umibig nang di buo ang kalooban

dapat hindi ka pang hinaan

dahil ang pag ibig ay para sa matapang

Day 253: Mga Paalala sa Paggawa ng masama

1. Wag kang magpapahuli

        - hindi magiging masama ang isang bagay kung hindi ka naman mahuhuli o wala namang makikita. Maaring kalabanin mo ang sarili mong konsensiya ngunit hangga't walang nakakakita sayo, ligtas ka pa.

2. Kapag nahuli ka, wag na wag kang aamin

        - sikapin na wag umamin sa bagay na masamang nagawa. Sikapin tumanggi at umiling sa bawat pagkakataon na ikaw ay aakusahan at kung humantong man sa kailangan nang umamin - 

3. Kapag aamin ka, mandamay ka ng iba

       - Masyadong maigsi ang buhay para solohin lahat ng pagkakamali, sikapin mandamay ng kaibigan

Day 252: Bad Day

It's difficult to stand up

when you feel the world is against you

but that is when you rise up

when the odds are stacked against you

Call it bad luck or what you want

in face of disaster you can always rant

but when the situation arises

face it and accept the bruises

one bad day won't define you

even a bad week or year

there will be times when you feel blue

and feel like you wish to shed a tear

Stand up and face the music

and stop beating yourself down

everyone are too busy and erratic

so smile in times you wish to frown

Day 251:Shoe fit Theory

Origin: people would only care about shoes in which they see fit to them and will care none for others that do not fit them.

Overview: When people give advices, they actually speak to themselves and not to you.

Explanation: people will constantly barge into your life and when you have problems, they will give advices even though when not asked.  additionally, they will give advices that fits them or fits in what situation they wish to gain from you. They will lecture you in ways that they wish to speak with themselves.

Day 250: Miss

Life will throw you sideways and up and under, there will be times that you will give and say fuck it but you will soon realize that you will say that phrase a couple of times. When you thought that life is going well, it will give you a sucker punch then a roundhouse kick along with the illusion of happiness. All I wanna say is, I miss my phone.

Day 249: 10pm to 4am rule

Overview: Nothing good happen in between these hours so just go to sleep. One may face a problem which will haunt him or her for a long time or maybe ruin something so great. If you meet yourself within these hours. Go to Sleep.

Exception: Some of the greatest stories you can never tell anyone happens in these hours.

Day 248: Present

Follow your dreams and never leave

the child within in you 

Thinking ahead will do you good

But it has setbacks too

The anxiety of the future

is worse than the pain of the past

thinking of the uncertain

while moving the present

Calm your nerves 

and start to think

of setting the future

but not every step of it

not everything has to go according to plan

just enjoy the moment that you have

Because the present you are making

is better than the tomorrow to come

The thought of success and failure

often lead to failures

for the anxiety of the future

is hurting the present towards it

so just think as of the moment

and set a proper goal

look at the present situation

and focus that on more

Day 247: Courage

The  courage to fall in love again

is not something everybody earns

It takes a lot of guts

to give away once more your love

I guess when you feel like it

You take three deep breaths

think the times you tried and failed

where you mostly missed than made

when tha certain courage 

rise up to the occasion

then do everything in your knowledge

to love once more with passion

to fall in love again

after the coming of array of pain

is a tough thing to do

maybe this time, will do.

Day 246: Fidel Lansangan theory

Origin: Mula sa pelikulang "100 tula para kay Stella" si Fidel Lansangan ay ang bida na kung saan gumawa ng 100 tula para sa babaeng nagngangalan na stella habang nananatiling kaibigan at karamay nito. Nasayang lamang lahat ng kaniyang pinaghirapan dahil sa isang araw na siya ang hinanap ngunit wala siya, kaya napunta si Stella kay Von.

Overview: Nawawalan ng silbi ang 'effort' mo sa isang tao kapag wala kang lakas ng loob umamin sa tunay mong nararamdaman. Isa pa ay, marahil mawala lahat ng pinaghirapan mo dahil sa isang beses na wala kang nagawa.

Example: Panoorin mo yung pelikula.

What to do: Umamin ka tulad nung sabi sa pelikula na nag alay pa siya ng isang daang tula, eh kailangan lang niya ng tatlong salita. Mahirap nang maunahan.

Day 245: Revertigo theory

Origin: the term was coined in the episode "Sandcastles in the Sand" in the series How I met your Mother. Though in proper psychology it is "associative regression" in which coined by Sigmund Freud.

Overview: It is when you see people from your past and act like how you were with them back then despite the maturity and growth you had over the years.

Example: Jenny, a strong independent woman in her 20's saw her ex boyfriend during her highschool days in a grocery store. Despite being a tough as nails office worker today, she acted like an immature teen seeing her first love.

What to do: Accept the fact that this person may have nothing to do with your life anymore and just move on. If you keep going back to your old ways, all the growth you had over the years will be nullified. 

Day 244: Horror movie phenomenon Theory (H.M.P.T)

Origin: In Horror movies, the lead characters senses dangers in a grove, path, or house but continues to enter that place anyway. Only realizing their mistake at the last minute, they suffer the consequences of something they could have avoided if they only believe in the OBVIOUS hints that a murder house or place has. Some may learn from the experience and some are too dead to learn.

Overview: We have a habit of jumping into things that are new to us and tend to ignore the obvious signs that you should not go. It is despite seeing red flags in a relationship or opportunity, we overlook them and try the experience only to leave you with a permanent scar for life. The advice "live life to the fullest" sounds awesome, but not always.

What to do:We all have gut feelings for every person we meet and every situation we face, and we choose to face the music since it is all for the experience (see Oops theory) However, when obvious red flags show, don't try to get your hopes up and wish for change since you came in there with that situation, don't expect it to change for you. Whether in a relationship or an opportunity arise, when signs show that it is bad, turn your back. Some opportunities are meant to be missed.