Jar

               I ask my friend to give my gift, the jar that is full of 366 handwritten letters, to my long time crush. My friend told me how she responded and this is how she responded: *stomping feet* "I don't deserve this I've been mean to him". I've had a hard time thinking if that is a positive or negative thing and until now I'm still thinking about it. But the statement "I don't deserve this" is what made my head turn.

              She is my crush for a year and 4 months and I can't even remember if I had any reason of liking her. Anyway that statement is really striking. She deserve the best in the world: she deserved to be court, to be loved, and to be praised. She deserved everything great thing in the world including my jar with effort hehehe. But in reality it made me think, do I even deserve her?

              The jar I gave her was a a Christmas present and to remind her I still like her even after all this time. It was nothing more than that. I'm happy that she is happy and she deserves true happiness, even if they're not from me/.