Day 243: Oops theory

"Oops" and "what if" are two phrases which go hand in hand they are vital to a man's life. But saying an oops more often is better than saying "what if" your entire life and forever fall into that dilemma of thinking and you never get to move on with your life.

Life is about taking chances and if you're not taking one, you are wasting your life. Forever wondering of what could happen if you only went for it. Fearing for mistake will never result in growth causing you to become depressed or miserable.

There are instances in life in which you know that something is a mistake but you just have to go for it since the only way to know that it is a mistake is to commit that mistake and say "wow that was a mistake" take the chances and say oops often. 

Life is never awesome without the things you regret and wish you can take back. Just have fun and collect oops on the way.

A man who only says "oops" less than a hundred times his lifetime, has never really lived.

Day 242: Graduation Goggles Theory

We all experience the nostalgic feeling when we are about to part ways with a certain aspect of your life and when you have to part ways with a person even though the whole time with that aspect or person is miserable. I welcome you all to the "Graduation Goggles" theory

disclaimer: this is from HIMYM and I will only elaborate it further.

A lot of people feel sad during graduation days especially in highschool. However, most of the time, highschool is years of bullying, shaming, and unhealthy competitions. A lot of horrible things happen in highschool and we all negate it by the time of graduation for the sole reason that you will never see those people again. You are suddenly having an emotional attachment to the people who once made your life miserable. Although, this may not apply to some a lot can relate to this. If your highschool seems awesome even after years of looking back and not only at the moment you are about to leave then you really loved it or you're one of the mean people. either way.

Some relationships are toxic to the point that it is controlling and unhealthy. every aspect of your life is affected. Example cited will be when a guy or girl forbids his or her lover to socialize with their friends or to put it into extremes, the person is shut out of the world while the other is constantly cheating. Now in these scenarios one will feel useless and every negative emotion in the dictionary but, the moment he or she decides to break up; suddenly every good thing flashes back and negates the toxic habits that hurts you as a human being.

This theory is likely applicable to relationships. As the graduation goggles causes the person to come back to the one who hurt him or her with the expense of never moving on. Every time you try to leave an abusive relationship. The Graduation Goggles fools you everytime leaving you in an endless loop of staying with the person who can never be right for you.

This also applies to friendships or jobs that are continually harmful to you, you will attempt to leave everytime but the moment you are one step away from freedom, the graduation goggles kicks in and you go back in the place or person in which will never change and leaving is the most likely option.

Graduation goggles is most likely associated to the fear of change. We are so afraid of something unfamiliar that the familiarity hinders our growth as a person. The future is really scary, imagine jumping in to something that you have no clue about and you shall proceed from scratch, but you cannot keep holding in to the past because it's familiar. It is very tempting at times but you have to realize that staying is a mistake. Let the time you keep on insisting that the person or organization will change be the time that you move on.

The tip on breaking the graduation goggles is realizing that no matter how you hold on to the past, it is already gone. the familiar present and past is comfort but the uncertain future is growth. everyone is destined ot be miserable at the point of their lives, you just have to go through it. break these goggles.

Day 241: Punishment and Reward

In the concept of right and wrong, people don't usually weigh in their actions according to their inner mentality or own perspective of morality, they weigh in on laws, consequences and how the society would perceive them. The subjectivity of right and wrong will always be in the conversation however, the concept of punishment and reward is objective.  Facing consequences for the wrong deeds and taking rewards for the right ones is the subconscious decision maker of everyone. Consequently, what if one may never face the consequences of one's action? Will that individual still thrive of being "good" in his own way or will he do things that are unacceptable in every aspect of the society? Does social conformity and reputation place above one's view on right and justice?

Day 240: Live Life

everything happens for a reason and life will throw things that will lead you to your path and show you the right way. It will feel uneasy and wrong at times but when the puzzles start to fall and fit, you will see the essence and the value of your sufferings, so thrive today as you never know the value of a moment or a scenario which lead to another that will show you the right path. Be patient as destiny will work its wonder on you. just go with the flow but never let the stream control your life. Maybe the next event you go to, is the moment you are waiting for.

Day 239: Pasensya

Nakaupo at luhaan sa daanan

Ganyan kita unang natagpuan

Nagulat ako sa napagmasdan ko

Nang Makita kitang nadudurog sa harapan ko

Inabot ko ang aking kamay

At inalay bawat oras ng aking buhay

Habang tinatakpan mo ang iyong braso

Pilit kong hinihilom ang iyong puso

Kinukubli ko ang mga sarili kong sugat

Habang pilit kitang inaangat

Ngunit kasabay ng pag angat ko sa iyo

Ay nahuhulog na ang aking puso

Dumating ang araw na di kita makilala

Tila bang nag ibang tao ka na

Ang kahapon sayo ay unti unting nawalan ng bakas

Naghilom na ang puso mo, kasabay ng iyong mga laslas

At nakita ko na ang estatwa kong nililok

Na naging perpekto na ang pagkahubog

Nakakatawa na ang taong aking binuo

Ay siyang dudurog ng aking puso

At nang Makita ko na ayos ka na

Ay inamin kong mahal kita

Ngunit nasa piling ka na ng iba

At sinabi mo “pasensya na, kaibigan lang kita”

Day 238: Taking Chances

College in my generation is confusing. We are expected to perform as adults while being treated as adults and basically adulting is hard. Some of my peers are having a child, some are getting into a relationship and some went missing since the graduation of Senior Highschool. Being in the first batch of senior highschool to come into college, the expectations are way out of the window and some people doesn't even have time to socialize (looking at you self).

Academics are important but most of the people around me, even my professors, insist that life is not all about academics and they are right. The previous years of my life felt wasted since I refused to socialize in order to focus in school which backfired immediately. So in any case scenario, try to socialize, it's not expensive.

The great thing about college, or in case my college. Is that we change classrooms every class as well as we interact with different people with degree programs. It's like speed dating , but it last for an hour and a half and you feel stressed. with the variety of people around you, it is a blessing in disguise that you can make multiple first impressions in a semester or even a year. 

There are multiple things that you have to thrive in life and some risks take so much from you that you will forever wonder what it might be if you only took that risk. But here's the catch, if something or someone has the possibility of making you happy even at the slightest one percent. Do it. It is much better to say "oops" rather than "what if"

My college life is only starting but I have  few oops in my hands. I am not slowing down and I will see to it that no more what ifs and I think you should do too.

Day 237: Introverts

Being alone is very nice and it give you time to think you can contemplate about the universe and even do the embarassing things you wish to do when people are not around, then you can overthink and drown in your thoughts, better yet, you will succumb to the very painful reality that you are in fact alone and has been faking the love for this solitude and you are in need of human interaction as well as shower.

People may be insufferable at times but you have to admit that you need them, if people from the earlier days did not find social conformity, then the concept of good hygiene would cease to exist. We've all been there.

Friends are awesome, except at times they go beyond the boundary and invade your personal space or even attack you so playfully that they laugh while targeting your deepest insecurities. but life is boring without friends, and even an introvert like me would say that.

Introverts are one of the most misunderstood kind of people in the world, next to people who refuse to shower in rainy day weekends. below is a list of how introverts are misunderstood and how they really mean.

disclaimer:
this list is pretty much subjective,

1. we want to be invited to every special occasion like birthdays and parties and there are times that we will even consider going out, but never dismiss us. give us the chance to reject the invitation politely,
2. we are not anti social, we just have bad past experiences or we are oiled this way. we may be recessive to people but that does not mean that we hate you, most of the time we hate ourselves
3. when we say we have friends despite being introverts, we mean we have like 3 or 4 people who really talk to,
4. We forget names, sorry.
5. sometimes our mind wanders off into the abyss while you are speaking, please bear with us
6. we may be picky, but some of us are great friends once you get to know us,
7. if we initiate conversations, it takes a lot of guts and bravery and it will be mentally and physically exhausting for us. so please, bear with us more.
8. most of us are not shy, we just don't like talking for the sake of talking
9. we have emotions to, but we always internalize them.
10. we don't don't like working in groups, though we thrive working alone, we can work in groups as long as our voice is heard
11. we are great listeners that's why we prefer not to talk first.
12. though being alone recharges us, we also crave human interaction
13. introverts are great leaders since they think everything through and contrary to popular belief, they can be great public speakers
14. sometimes we love the spotlight 
15. we can get lost in our head or thoughts 

As I've said earlier, this list is subjective and it may vary from one person to the other. 

When you see an introvert or sense one, just approach them like a normal person, or don't. But to disregard them as friends is wrong. we all need someone and some people and life would be boring if we have no one to share these moments with someone. Just don't leave out introverts in the conversation.

Day 236: Five Words

This used to be a variety of blogs which short stories, proses and essays thrive but ever since the fire nation attack, I got stuck with poems. Poems for who I do not who is for so my friends intrigue me most of the time. but now things are different, after finishing the series "How I met your mother" I felt empty and I want to relive that. So my 365 day challenge will be a the dumpster of my memory of that series but for now I will incorporate ng learnings.

The five world rule applies to almost everyone, it's like gravity. so here are the five words that we all regret. 

disclaimer: this is a bilingual list. Also, some are in the series so, credits to the series

1. Sige, iintayin kita kahit matagal
2. I can walk that far
3. Hindi naman maanghang ang sili
4. oo naman, okay lang ako
5.  kuha ka lang ng pagkain
6.  madali lang ang exam bukas
7.  sige, ligawan mo ex ko
8.  oo, mahal pa rin kita
9. of course, I will help
10. I'll give you second chance
11. I don't need to sleep
12. the exam is too easy
13. there's no need to study
14. magfafacebook na nga muna ako
15. babangon ako after five minutes
16. sige lang, isang shot pa
17. mag uusap lang kami ni ex
18. sige, hanggang friends lang tayo
19. I'm gonna win her back
20. let's pet that stray dog
21. I should talk to her
22. yes, I do trust you
23. pwede ba kita ayain magdinner?
24. ito ang best day ever!
25. mag yuyoutube ako sa computer shop

with that being said, this list is far from completion and in the future posts, additional will be given. but in this context for now, never ever make a phrase or sentence in five words. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED,

Day 235: Self Preservation

in every situation that appeared

choose yourself for your own benefit

never think yourself as a second

choose loving yourself first 

and never skip that thought

learn to love yourself

and never think it was selfish

In times you need to love yourself first

before you can serve other

Day 234: Magpanggap

Ngingiti ako sayo kapag nadaanan ka

at malamang tumango pa ng bahagya

kung biruin pa ng tadhana

kakausapin pa kita

aasta ako na parang wala 

tipong magkaibigan parin tayo

kahit alam kong maiinis ka

ayun ang gagawin ko

kakayanin ko pigilin ang luha

kahit ang sabik na makita ka

tulad ng mga una kong inasal

aasta ako na parang normal

matagal na panahon na rin ang lumipas

nang matapos ang sa atin at naganap

marahil lahat ng damdamin ay di pa kumupas

pero di tulad mo, kaya kong magpanggap

Day 233: Hi.

It will take a series of heartbreak

and neck in deep heart aches

you will see your friends grow and be happy

while you are thinking if you are moving slowly

you will meet someone who you thought

is the one for you

a hard battle will be fought

only to realize, this is now what you wanted too

you will meet several people

and surprised how they mean so little

as every friends and people you share a laugh

will all disappear slowly and in a snap

you will think that you meet the one

and find her in several people you know

therefore heartbreaks are done

as you decide to just go with the flow

And when everything seems wrong

you learn that pieces fall in place all along

one day you will be in the right place and right time

and learn that everything will be fine

then there she is standing meters away

with you, sitting there an thinking of something to say

then by gathering the courage to get by

you get the courage to say "hi"

Day 232: Mga natutunan ko sa The Day After Valentine's Day

#1: Minsan isa lang ang papel mo sa isang tao
- minsan nadating tayo sa buhay ng tao para tulungan siya maging mas maayos na tao pero kailangan natin tanggapin minsan may hanggang dun lang yun at wala na dapat humigit pa.

#2: Ipakita mo na sa simula kung sino ka
- mahirap kapag bumuo ka ng pagkatao para sa taong gusto mo tapos kapag napagod ka na ikubli ang sarili mo dun, iiwanan ka. Masakit kapag iniwan ka sa pagkakataon na masyado na siyang nasa isip at puso mo. Magpakatotoo ka simula pa lang. Spare yourself from the pain

#3: Apologies
- Ang kapatawaran ay ibinibigay mo sa tao hingin man niya to o hindi. Dahil mahirap maging bilanggo ng sarili mong isip at nagkikimkim ng damdamin. Sa oras na matuto kang magpatawad ay magiging malaya ka sa mga bagay na iyong tinatakbuhan.

#4: Halo effect
- kaya minsan napapasok sa mga toxic na relasyon dahil masyado nating tinitingnan o exaggearated na ang mga katangian niya sayo. minsan isipin din na di perpekto ang tao. Mahalagang malaman ito lalo na pag nag momove on.

#5: Lamat
- minsan ang isang tao na makikilala mo sa isang buong linggo o kahit tatlong linggo lamang ay mag iiwan ng malaking lamat o tatak sa puso mo na kakailanganin ng taon para mawala.

#6: Freebies
- Libreng magmahal ng kahit sinong gusto mo. basta wag kang aasa na kaya niyang ibalik ang nararamdaman mo. Libre magmahal pero mahirap na.

#7: Wag masyado advance magisip
- Mahuhulog ka sa isang tao at makikita mo na ang kinabukasan mo kasama siya kahit hindi mo alam kung may magiging kayo ba. Hinay hinay sa pag iisip, basta enjoy the moment kasi di mo alam hanggang san lang yan.

#8: Utang na Loob
- Kahit kelan hindi obligasyon ng isang tao na mahalin ka kahit anong nagawa mo pa para sa kaniya, Tandaan mo yan.

#9: Unrequited Love
- Maraming natutuwa sa terminolohiya na ito pero ang totoo lang ay sinisira mo sarili mo habang siya ayos lang naman,

#10: Sugat
- May mga sugat na hindi na naghihilom o kaya nagpepeklat na sila. Pero ang mga sugat na bumabaon ay yung mga hindi nakikita ng mata,

#11: Motibo
- Madaling sabihin na gusto o mahal mo na ang isang tao. Pero bago ka magsabi o magpakita ng motibo, isipin mo ng isang daang beses tapos isang libo pa. Hindi mo alam ang epekto nito sa taong pagsasabihan mo

#12: LBC
- Minsan kasalanan mo na rin kung magpadala ka masyado sa mga matatamis na salita, minsan alamin mo ang halaga mo para hindi ka masyadong maapektuhan.

#13: Dahilan
- Minsan ayaw niya sayo dahil ganito ka o ganyan o may ibang tao siyang gusto. Minsan sadyang ayaw niya sayo ng walang dahilan.

Day 231: Moments

I guess you never know the right moment
focusing only in hours spent
Something so beautiful is close
even in times where everything blows

All your life you are waiting for something
that you took sign of everything
every mistake is done along the way
making your hopes drastically sway

but maybe that moment is nearby
you just have to wait for the perfect time
because that moment will eventually come
When you learn to settle and stop to run

Day 230: What if I still...

What if the feelings I had never fade

and I regret the actions I never made

What if the reason I gave up easily

because I can't stand the thought of you avoiding me

It may be a spontaneous act

but in the moment i was speaking form the heart

It was a five minute dance

but it felt like a decade of trance

Someday when I have it all figured out

and i am more than a little snout

I'll pursue the love of your comfort

And once again I will try to court

Day 229: 19th

In the twilight before two decades
I have yet to reach my desired accolades
I have yet to light every dim
I don't even know how to swim

I still chase for that highest star
And my dreams are still afar
The goals remain the same
but my methods drastically changed

I may still not be satisfied
but I enjoy this very ride
I will still walk that extra mile
and still fight with a large smile

years will come but those that passed
taught me things that I wish i never had
fought battles and war where I came victorious
but the taste of defeat is still all glorious

Still I am grateful of this day
as it signified a lot of firsts
I shall enjoy this day
as the others will be of no rest

thanks for all who remembered
and everyone who made this special
I wish everyday, everyone cared
so that everyone may feel special

Day 228: Guard Down

I felt weak and defeated
out of luck and brain dead
All my smiles turned to frown
When I realized I let my guard down

Overconfidence is always the case
And I keep chasing on what is not a race
But still I have to put up a strong face
or else I catch every judgement gaze

tomorrow I will comeback stronger
and fight my my way through
this will be the defeat I will always remember
for this is the last time due

Day 227: Angels and Shapes

She was standing in the lobby

as usual, her phone is her hobby

in a world that she is unaware

how someone to her, truly cares

Too soon to confess,

and too coward to profess

eaten by all this pride

I can only enjoy the ride

I guess angels work on many shapes

where they rose among the apes

Impressed by this flower

and appalled by her color

Day 226: Living the dream

Something not felt before
And now I feel the score
it's shaking my very core
I hope in time, this won't be a bore

To dream maybe a child thing
but imagine living your dreams to reality
One would say when they live the dream
they don't know how it is to live in that realm

I dreamt of this but not like this
as if everything came into perfection
I have no one and no more to please
other than making my work into fruition

I hope this last for years
and I may finish things in time
and then I will shed my happy tears
when success is finally called mine

Day 225: I have a friend

I have a friend who help me through

in times in need and he was true

though in time he was very rude

He helped love my solitude

I was never stepped on because of him

And he and I were always a team

with him on my side

people seem to walk aside

and in times of despair he helped me still

though I can see how stubborn he is

he helped me learn to love myself

and never rely on someone else

I never admitted that I was wrong

even if I knew all along 

Someday I know he has to go

but not today when I need him most

his name is Pride

Day 224: Price of beauty

A tragedy it is for someone who

can please the eyes but not the soul

who can turn their heads

but not their hearts

whose value is never evaluated

since face value is all that is needed

a praise of beauty will always flood

but her heart and soul will never get a nod

LLC

Isang taon na naman ang lumipas

at umusad ang edad ng isang hiyas

isang kakaibang dalaga 

na hindi batid ang kanyang halaga

katulad ng mga pilipinong kanta

nakaniyang pinakikinggan

at sapat na ang kaniyang boses at salita

upang siya ay kaibigan

maraming bagay ang tumutukoy sa kaniya

matalino, mabait at maganda

ngunit isang bagay ang hindi magiging siya

at ayun ay kailanman hindi sya magiisa

sabay sa kinang ng kanyang mga mata

ay ang ganda ng buhok

mga matang kumikinang talaga

kaya ang mga puso ay pumupusok

bakit ako matatakot na siya ay lapitan

kung obyus naman na madali siyang maging kaibigan

umiral ang kademonyohan ng aking kamay

kaya ito ngayon ang sulat na aking alay

advance ako magisip kaya hinihiling ko na

maging masaya pa siya sa kaniyang mga kaarawan pa

sana ay magingat pa siya at taasan ang kaniyang bakod

kasabay ng paglakas ng guardian angel niya sa likod

sobrang niyang pambihira

at hindi sapat ang kaniyang wika

dahil hindi sapat ang beautiful o maganda

para ipaliwanag ang kaniyang pagka pambihira

In the end of the day 

you can expect her to make history

what makes you beautiful question is easy

it's that she is awesome times infinity

It's the little things that make her amazing

how strong and how she's not great only in one thing

if perfection exists and it's true

it's gotta be you

Like harry who was chosen

She stood up when needed like ron

as beautiful and smart hermione is

she was the combination of the three

so in her special day wish her the best

as her section and friends love her most

never leave by her side

and she may forever feel loved

if someday love comes around

I hope she knows her worth

so she will never settle

for someone who don't deserve her

A year has passed and a year will come

and life will always go on

may the tidings of life never shake her

and she gains strength along the way

I wish her all the best

Day 223: Screw Up

Sometime in your life you will someone

who is so perfect and wonder how 

do you even deserve this person

and all the time that you are

with this person

your mind wanders off if you truly 

deserve the happiness

that person gives you

and in the middle of thinking

you just realize,

you screw it up

and lose that person forever.

Day 222: Ride

A week has passed an all is well

I met all who has a tale to tell

stories all over the country

Amazing people in a single university

But all these pretty words mean nothing

to the wave that is coming

I guess this will be the part of my life

where I will only enjoy the ride

Day 221: Flow

May we all achieve our dreams
and live to see the fruits
may we always gleam
and never stop the pursuit

years will come and some will change
life will make you happy or filled with rage
the things around you will feel different
But I wish you not resent

cause life will never be nice
and it will kick you down more than twice
I guess that's how it goes
just learn to love the flow

Day 220: Possession

I'm only a friend in your eyes

a comfort in your sudden cries

for that I cannot demand

even if I offer you everything I have

and receive nothing in hand

I guess you will only serve a lesson

that not all things come into fruition

I cannot have you in any season

for the sole reason

that you are someone else possession

Day 219: Out.

It was a long day that passed
more than twelve hours rushed
but after all the events that should be exhausting
I am surprised that I feel nothing

maybe I feel independent for the first time
and I know that everything is fine
For the first time in my life
I felt glad that I went out

Day 218: Hello

how can look someone in the eye

and have the guts to say goodbye

how can this friend turned stranger

become someone you wish you can't remember

then years have passed

and you met at a fateful chance

ecstatic you may be, but you now

no one would dare to say hello

Day 217: Destiny

Stars and planets aligned

in ways they never did before

maybe this was a sign

that there was something more

desperate to look for a sign

so we dug the things which are bizarre

desperately waiting for the perfect time

waiting for every wishing star

But waiting is a mistake

it always was and will be

maybe she's not mine for the take

but who knows what the future will bring?

Day 216: Bukas

Bukas ng umaga pag mulat ng mata

bubungad sa akin ang bagong kabanata

sasakay ako ng dyip palayo

habang makikisalamuha sa mga ibang tao

malayo sa lugar na nakasanayan

sa lugar na tatawagin kong pangalawang tahanan

mga bagong pagsubok ang darating

mas kailangan ng tibay ng damdamin

sa pangarap kong paaralan

ay sa wakas ako magaaral

mahigit na isang dekadang paghahanda

ay bukas na magsisimula

Day 215: Ganito Ganyan

Bakit kaya ganito ang mundo?
Kailangan ikaw ay ganito
para bang sila nagtatakda
ng mga bagay na dapat maging sino ka
kapag maganda ka
dapat sa maganda ka mapunta
kapag pangit ka
aba, manigas ka dyan
tipong wala kang kalayaan
na ang puso ay sundan
dahil ang iyong pinakatatakutan
ang mga matang antalim ng tinginan
at malinaw na sayo na ikaw ay hinuhusgahan
ang sarap siguro na kahit isang araw lang
mabubuhay ka sa sarili mong galawan
yung matutuwa ka sa taong nasa harap ng salamin
ay hindi mo siya paulit ulit tatanungin
kung sino ba siya
at bakit parehas kayo ng ginagawa
ngunit hindi mo sya makilala

Day 214: Investments

I have been at my point in life

where I am building an empire

but rather waiting for a scorned lover

I decided to invest in friendships

family has been my foundation

and they have never let me down

but still my biggest regret

is the I have yet to invest in a friend

maybe having a few wouldn't be bad

a friendship which lasted until now

is something I have yet to had

I just wish at the end of the day

I can cheerfully say

that in proper time

I had a friend for life

Day 213: Want

have you ever wanted something so much

that you give up everything and such

giving away the things you can sacrifice

just for that one sweet prize

you lost your identity in the process

leaving you without anything even the rest

giving what you can and everything less

and turn your life into a living mess

there you are waiting in line

acting as if things were fine

sacrificing even your precious time

even exhausted, you insist to grind

now you have the thing you always wish for

and the joy is incomparable

but pain it is to realize that

this isn't the thing that you want