Day 6: Braces

I have this super uncomfortable object in my mouth that is surprisingly essential for me to be "good looking", I guess being smart and helpful wasn't enough of a trait. I deeply protested about having my braces but at the same time I loved to explored the possibility of it. Everyone's been teasing me for a week or even longer than that so I much as well do it anyway. The only fact that I can't seem to put my finger on is that I have to change something in myself to be accepted. I mean most of them states that after braces I may look more appealing and possibly get a girlfriend, but I can't see that as a positive thing since I am against the thought of changing oneself to be more likable by others. I have never been fond of attention, especially if it does not come from something I love doing. Don't get me wrong I would love attention if people will notice my writings. 

I've been neglected of good food for the last 12 hours ever since I've had this on, all I had is soup. Well, the pain of desiring something. I just wanted a great smile so I can finally smile at pictures, but the horror of attaining that, damn. The fact is, I am currently experiencing the consequences of a decision I halfheartedly made. But the good thing is that I took a risk, got out of the comfort zone and finally learned that some things are worth going over. 

If the handsome thingy would be true in the future, I couldn't see myself enjoying it. As I've said earlier I don't like changing for acceptance, I only want a small group of friends. 

This 365 day writing challenge and having my braces are proofs that I am growing up whether the people around me acknowledges that. I'm beginning to train my own discipline, it's not an easy task, I know that it will never be. I just hope all the suffering is worth it in the end. I wish that in some time in the future, I can be the man I had hoped to be.