We recently came back from a Christmas vacation. We shared stories of how the holidays went and I got a conversation with this classmate of mine,Fair skinned, short haired and large eyes, anyway she got back with her ex and decided to intrigue my own love life. I'll give you a bit of a background check, I once fell on love with my best friend and actually waited for her for four years. That's all you need to know. Back on track, me and this classmate on mine also talked about having braces. She always wanted one and she heard that I'll be having mine - I was wearing a mask that day so that thought that I already have my braces so they all came at me and started punching my mouth. Not knowing I wore a mask for my allergic rhinitis. She told me that she needed braces so she would appeal more to people and I have the same reason. But one sentence from her shook me.
She stated that when I have braces maybe the girl who rejected me accept me since I have a chance to look good. But it didn't catch my interest - we we're also talking about how I sent my final good bye to my best friend this past new year. The thought of her being my friend again didn't appeal to me at all. Especially, when she may like me back when the day I'll be handsome - it's insulting, I feel at that moment no one will love me unless I change my overall appearance. I think I speak for most of us when I say that looks are overrated. It Kay seem bias but it's pretty unfair.
Despite my appearance not being as appealing as others, I'm contented. Why should I feel discriminated for something I didn't get to choose? Maybe insult some of my deeds, I can take them since they are my doing. But to be discriminated for your looks is pretty stupid since your born like that. I don't feel like changing my appearance so that people will love me. One perks of being ugly is that when people love you they love you for who you are. Beautiful people has hard times determining if they are really loved at all or just needed to feed someone's ego. I'd rather be loved for who I am rather than be a display figurine.
Also , who the heck set the standards that to be beautiful is that you have to be thin. My mother is a great cook and I can pretty much buy my own food so sorry I guess. Unattractive people are also put into things that they never deserve. Being calm and reserved as a beautiful person means that; You are simply quiet or introverted, but when an ugly person does, it's creepy. Unattractive people are put into shits they didn't ask for. The list of the things that they are disadvantaged is by a mile.
Back to the conversation, I don't really give a damn if my past best friend even return to my life. I've sent my proper goodbyes and that's it. I believe that we should all learn to love ourselves and stop looking for validation from others. Beauty is a matter of perspective and stop focusing on the things you don't have and hone the things you have.
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