Day 305 of 366: Last day of October

That nightmare is over 

Disbelief in going through it

Now we face another 

And hopefully push through 

Day 304 of 366: Makamtan

Pagod ay nadarama

Bumabagsak na ang mata

Wallet ay walang laman

Mabigat buong katawan

Isip ay hindi mabakante

Sa nga ganap Hindi makapampante

Isip ay sadyang lito

Mabigat pa ang ulo

Ngunit uusad pa rin

Lahat ay iindahin

Para sa huli

Maabot ang nais kamtin

Day 303 of 366: Hold

The heavy have done and passed 

Slowly I get back up

Hungrier than evermore

I'll claw to the top once more

As the rewards for me are waiting 

I'll silence all the wailing

As tears of joy starts falling

I'll hold my prize dearly 

Day 302 of 366: Soon

Once I get my due

Hardwork finally fruits 

Grabbing those seemed out of reach 

Achieving what was only a dream

Then finally the gifts I'll enjoy

Are those I deserve the most

Garnering what is rightfully earned

And dismissing the disrespect 

Day 301 of 366: Happy Tired

It was fun with her always

The trip was always worth it

Exhausted at the end of the day 

But happy tired in the least

Day 300 of 366: Juggle

The things I need to juggle

Work I have to finish

Tasks at hand

Things I have to deliver 

My mind works in many ways

As it is all over the place

It was never seemed easy

As help is never coming

So all alone I do all of this

Exhausted I may seem

I will push through 

Because I have no choice 

Day 299 of 366: Patience

It's a special day from someone

In my family 

But due to the storm that passed

Situation we are in right now

We have little to no

Celebration can wait

As all the struggle 

Will finally be over 

We just need to be patient 

Day 298 of 366: Pursue

It's scary on what may come 

But hopeful of what is not 

Failures may have defined my past

But my future will not be as much

As I aim to carve my path

I will crawl and gnaw

Until I get the things I want

And unlike before

I will patronise no one

And pursue the things

That I love

Day 297 of 366: Safe

I have no words today

I just want everyone safe

Day 296 of 366: Pay

It will all come back to bite you 

Those careless words thrown out

Rumours spread out

Lies that were folded

As if they were cold facts

It'll come back 

Ten times more than 

Those hurtful words

And I may not see itt happen to you

Or to anyone you've recruited

But the devil gets his due

With a heavy tax

Day 295 of 366: Bunga

Papasok muli sa bagong linggo

Wala pa sa opisina

Ngunit ramdam na ang pagod

Iniisa isa ang nakatakdang tungkulin

Dahil di naman mauubos 

Ang mga dapat tapusin

Kapit lang sa dapat gawin

Tiwala sa sarili ang dadalhin

At lahat ng pagod pawis 

Na sa lupa idinilig

Ay mag bubunga rin para sa akin

Day 294 of 366: Better soon

I hope it heals

Or it all gets better

I hope myself redeemed 

Amidst all the chaos weather

I am frustrated to my core 

As they live their lives

As if nothing was done 

When they ruined mine 

But everyone will get their due 

And all the frustrations in the world

That I have carried through 

Will all be better soon 

Day 293 of 366: Pieces

I tried being selfish for a day

And somehow it backfired

So again I crawl in my cave

Offering pieces if myself 

Day 292 of 366: Burnout

I feel it close, the fire within 

That the flame is dwindling

Little sparks to compensate 

As I feel my will take away

Exhausted beyond means

But still I push through

With all the chaise within

I still have to perform

To finish tasks that keeps on piling

Despite the reward not coming

Little compensation I have 

Means nothing to the work I've done

Juggling all my tasks

Feeling weight on my back

Eyes becoming droopy

As the screen before me is blurry

I can't complain 

Cause I know no one cares

I just wish I'm compensated

For the fire within me slowly fading

Day 291 of 366: 8:00 am

I have poured so much today

My mind is in all places

This feels like a Monday 

Despite being on Thursday 

All ends well and worked out

I'm exhausted beyond relief

I'm hungry and I'm tired 

And it's not even 8:00 am

Day 290 of 366: More

I know the pain, frustration, and anger

To fight through it all

And falter in the end

To wish you could prove something 

And that situation ends

I feel sorry for you

I wish I could do more

Day 289 of 366: Like that

Frustrated I may seem

I still love her still

As she is the one committed 

To grow with me

And I cannot put a price on that

And I'm just glad

I found someone like that

Day 288 of 366: Another day

I don't know what more could I do

After all have been poured

Things happened

We simply live with it

But there is always

Another day

Day 287 of 366: Rough

It was rough in all sorts of ways

I was frustrated beyond means

I am tired, insomniac, and battered

But things needed to be finished

In the end it everything pulled through 

And all ended in grace

Tired as it seems 

Happy endings exist

Day 286 of 366: better soon

I missed a few beats

Without due notice 

Maybe I'm losing touch

And work is piling

But it'll be better soon

Day 285 of 366: Frustrating

It's all so frustrating 

To face it like this

To all that's happening

And to absorb everything 

And even I know

I have little power

To change anything at all

Because it's just me now

I hope I get better

Feel better than today

Then maybe I could step

Up to where I was supposed to 

Day 284 of 366: Mine soon

It'll be mine soon

And all I ever asked for

Success will be at hand

With all the things desired 

Then I'll hold it in my arms

Snuggly comfortably

As if it was meant to be mine

All along

Day 283 of 366: Show up

I just need to get through 

Live for another day

I'll disappoint a few

But it won't stay that way

Maybe it'll get better

And things fall into place 

But now I'll keep showing up

Til my number is called

Day 282 of 366: Sparks

The sparks have gone cold

Far from the story told

Breaking out of the mold 

The idea was simply unsold

Boundaries were stepped over

Then do it over again

As if never listened

To anything that has been said

Now I'm tired to do anything 

Even the feelings lingering

Slowly I feel them fading

As my mind is shaky

It was too much from here

And I don't know what I can bear

Maybe it was all too much

Day 281 of 366: Paglisan

Sa kagustuhang magustuhan

At gulobay maiwasan

Ngayon ko nararamdaman

Na ako'y tinatapakan

Tila wala lamang

Sa kanilang isipan

Ang aking pangangailangan

Siguro'y nakasanayan

Na ako'y gawing basahan

Kaya ako'y magsalita man

Sa kanila ay wala lang

Kaya ngayo'y galit at sukdulan

Hindi ko malaman

Saan ang paglalagyan

Nang emosyon naipong tuluyan

Marahil respeto ay malayo na

Makuha sa kanila

Kaya dapat na naming paghandaan

Ang nalalapit na paglisan

Day 280 of 366: Hantungan

Ganoon sana ang hinanap

Na sana'y tinanggap nang tuluyan

At hindi ko na pinilit

Pumasok sa pamantayan

Na alam ko na hindi naman 

Talaga sakin nakalaan

Sadyang ako lamang

Ang nagpakita

Nung pagkakataon na dumaan

Ngunit ngayong nawawala na

Ang lungkot na nadarama

O pangungulila

Tila wala na ang interes na nasimulan

Pero ganun talaga ang pagkakataon 

Kapag lumabas ka na sa kahon

Malalaman na lamang

Hanggang saan ang hantungan

Day 279 of 366: Wala lang

Hindi kami ang pinaboran

Pagkakataon sami'y lumisan

Bagamat inis ay nararamdaman

Tinanggap namin nang tuluyan

At patuloy kaming nagpapakita

Gumagalaw kapag kailangan 

At alam namin naman

Na kapag ito'y nasolusyonan

Ang pangyayari ay wala lang

Day 278 of 366: Badtrip

May umapak ng sapatos ko

Badtrip

Day 277 of 366: I'm Glad

I'm glad I'm surrounded 

By people who grew

Who broke the stigma

Grew out of cocoon

Those who refused

To live in status quo

And did not went along

Generational curse 

It was tough for them

But they did regardless

And I'm happy they are

The ones by my side

Day 276 of 366: Soon

I'll have my due

Reap all my rewards

All this pain

Will be roots

Of the success I build

But for now I will clap 

Foe those before me

Even if I scorn 

Those who used me

It will be my time soon

Patience must be kinder

Day 275 of 366: Unrewarded

It did not pan out well

Frankly, it's unfair 

On how they were rewarded 

With cost of dragging someone 

They got what they wanted

Made the claims they want

And sure enough 

They got that 

Frustrating it is 

Truly on my perspective 

Even so

It happened twice

Is hardwork unrewarded?

Are all this to sham

If hardwork is meaningless 

What the hell

AmU I doing here?