If it all comes later

Had my woes come later

Would my pain be lighter?

Would the stick struck in my chest

Feel like a little more I can take at best?

Is the agony of waiting help?
Or it only maked the pain dive deeper

Would I curse myself less if ever

I experience this pain much later

because it came to me ina vulnerable time

I cried back then, I weep right now

Ghosts of then still haunt me back

As I succumb 

To the pain I though I just had