Day 244 of 366: End of August

It was fun overall

Major bumps in the road

Have come along the way

But it was fun overall

Met new people

Discussed new ideas

Formed friendships 

Better than last year

I hope everything goes well

From here on out

Day 243 of 366: Doing what I love

Things went well than expected

I had fun in the end

Even met some new friends

And learned new things 

I'd love to do this daily

And do what I love

I hope I'll be in the position 

Where I'm doing

What I love 

Day 242 of 365: New Friends

I thought I like being alone

Isolation was my friend

But I think it was never the case

I think I never really found

The people for me

Or I never bothered looking

But what is clear

I like meeting people

Day 241 of 366: Through it all

It's lonely up here

Feeling empty from everything 

I feel like I'm lacking

But I can't explain what it is

Maybe progress feels lonely

Or maybe it's costing 

But we live with what we have

And I just need to

Get through it all

Day 240 of 366: Thinking

Anxious of what's to come 

Not sure what to do

In an unfamiliar place

Thinking of what to do

And praying for the best

Day 239 of 366: Knee Pain

Please not at a time like this

Not when things are going good

Not when everything is in motion 

Or when finally I'm here

Please not now

Day 238 of 366: Heavy

A sudden burst of sadness

Hits me all of a sudden

Like something inside was missing

And as if I am lacking something

Maybe it's my knee hurting again

Or the anxiety of going to another place

Either way I have to do things

Even with a heavy heart

Day 237 of 366: Not Planned

It was a mess on all ends

Things didn't go as planned

There were frustrating moments

But it's something I would rather

Share with you always

Than someone else

Day 236 of 366: With

It was the start of the long rest

Which I felt at best

But the anticipation of seeing you

Was all I could ever think of

But a part of me was sad

I could not explain why

Maybe it's something I live with 

Day 235 of 366: Can I?

The presssure is kicking in

Thinking can I even do it

Do the things I've done before 

And stop overthinking 

On what may happen next

And simply do what is necessary 

What is expected of me

Can I really do it?

Day 234 of 366: Annoying

I'm starting to hate this

The feeling of pressing down 

The work crushing in

Exhaustion kicking in

Lack of proper recognition 

And not being compensated

It's becoming tedious

Not exciting in the least

I just feel more tired

As work keeps piling in

It's getting annoying

And those who don't deserve

Even gets rewarded 

This sucks to the core

I hate this very much

Day 233 of 366: Still sick

Remnants of exhaustion

Lingers on me still

My back still aches

As my legs feel jelly

I still catch my breath

As I feel I'm sweaty

Day 232 of 366: Goes well

Good thing I took that rest

Albeit a bit tired still

I hope to do better from here 

And see what could be done still

Already tired thinking of the tasks

I'll simply take them one by one

And wish that all goes well

Day 231 of 366: Another day

Tomorrow is another day

I don't know what I'll see

How tired I'll be

Exhausted already

Just thinking of it

Day 230 of 366: She saved the day

I wasn't really expecting 

For anything to happen

Day seemed uneventful 

But she made it all worth it

She made me smile

And made the day light

I'll forever be blessed

To have her by my side

Day 229 of 366: a day before

It never hits the same

The excitement and all

Anticipation never mattered 

As we're all sick of the moment 

But maybe bad beginnings

Doesn't mean bad journeys

Rather the worst have already passed

Day 228 of 366: Getting Better

I can actually manage today

Body is lighter than usual

But the fatigue sets in

And I'm exhausted as hell

But I guess I'm thankful 

I have people in my life

That looks after me 

And finally someone 

Is worth getting better for

Day 227 of 366: Bit better

It was getting better a bit

But the pain sticks

The discomfort persists

And body still weak

Barely standing up

Joints banged up

Eyes heavy

Throat dry

Basically functioning

But still beat up

Day 226 of 366: Peak Pain

Everything hurts

The acid building up

Throat swelling in

Body aches all over

I was crying and twitching 

Clenching my teeth

Twisting and rolling

Will it ever end?

Day 225 of 366: Acid

A sharp pain in my chest

Crawling in my throat

Swelling of the sides

Discomfort everywhere

Tightening of throat 

Rising level of pain 

Grinning of teeth

Didn't do anything

Day 224 of 366: Meant

If I knew any if this would happen

And how things would turn out

I wouldn't have given so much

Maybe it is something 

I am bound to live with 

To offer myself so much

Only to be betrayed 

But it what it is

And I cannot weep

What is never meant

To be with me 

Day 223 of 366: Happily

I'm just grateful I don't 

Understand what they're going through

Like even with the stories said

The experience shared

Is something I cannot comprehend 

I'll live with this

Happily I might say

Day 222 of 366: Self

Nothing notable happened 

I scared myself for nothing 

And now I move forward 

And live with myself 

Day 221 of 366: Scared Anyway

It went well better than expected

Better than I fear

Maybe I should let things be

And do it scared anyway

Day 220 of 366: 5th Death Anniversary

Parang kahapon lang

Ay kausap pa kita

Kung anong nangyari

Sa basketball kanina

At kahit limang taon na

Ang lumipas nang mula

Na ikaw ay namayapa

May mga araw talaga

Na mayroon saking pag aabang

Na sa ating tahanan

Ikaw ay uuwi pa

Parang kahit limang taon na

Ang lumipas talaga

Pilit ko pa rin iniinda

Ang sugat na iniwan

Halo halo ang aking nadarama

Sa ating pinagsamahan

Sana lamang

Ay nagkaroon tayo nang

Panahon magkaunawaan

Pero huli na lahat

At ikaw ay wala na

Ang bahay na naiwan

Ay tila lumaki pa

May mga butas sa puso

Na hindi kaya punan

At mga buhay sagana mo

Na sana ay iyong naranasan

Masama pa rin loob ko

Sa biglaan mong paglisan

Tila hindi ko matanggap

Na ganun ganun na lamang

Marami pa kong mararating

Tuktok na Hindi sukat isipin

Mga rurok na hindi natin inaakala

Ngunit bigla nating matatamasa

At pag dating nang panahon na iyon

Ay wala ka

At hindi na babalik pa

Day 219 of 366: Better

Things are better now

Better than expected

May not be like yesterday

Or anything ever again

But it's better now

Day 218 of 366: Anyway

I can handle it

I know that I can

I may be shaking

Sweaty and close to vomit 

But I know I'll make it

I'm in a much better position 

Than last year in this day

And I might have to crawl

Claw my way to the top

But I'll do it anyway 

Day 217 of 366: Fight, Fight, Fight

She is not perfect in any way

She always find something to fight about

She hates the fact

That I need to sleep

Or that I need

To explain something 

A million times

Before comprehending 

She often does

Rolls her eyes

At things I do

Regardless of which

The normalcy I do it

She always laughs

At my jokes and antics

But I wouldn't have it any other way

And I wouldn't wish someone in her place

She's the best that the world can offer 

So I will love her forever

It'll be messy, imperfect, and tiring

But she will always be worth it

Day 216 of 366: All smile

I actually went out of my way

For once this time 

And did something 

To make me happy

And glad that I did

Take that risk 

And now I'm here

All smiling 

Day 215 of 366: Happier with you

To an unexpected night

Knowing all of you

From the millions fights 

We've gone through

Misunderstandings I couldn't count 

And arguments which are not sound

From declarations of love

To frustrations apart 

There's no one else I'd rather

Share my heart that flutters

Day 214 of 366: Happy National Girlfriend's Day!!!

To all the fights we had and will have

Sweet moments we'll share and forget

Billion I love yous we'll mention

Committing all to a single person

To live in the same lifetime 

In the billions of this universe existence

Is a privilege to God

I will always be thankful 

So I'll hold your hand

As they fit in mine

And we'll gladly dance

In this cosmos of ours