Bothered

The past few days keep bothering me because the idea of romance once pops into my head. It is something I chased for so long but now I cannot grasp the basics of it; even a simple confession feels like I'm doing it for the very first time once again. When in the past I have admitted and been rejected and accepted it to some degree. But somehow this one is different. The type of person I never want to let go in any sense of the word or any form of relationship. I really like her though