Day 182 of 366: Mentally

Like a victim you played 

Despite not knowing the game

You spoke as if you knew

But you know all but the truth

Never did you bother 

To seek the truth after

And you simply acted

On what was said

A shame you are

To all like you

Then again speak what you want

And the world may turn against me now

Spit while you still can

For when the tables have turned 

I will show you the cruelty 

That I undeservingly received

Then in the greatest moment of crisis

When all of you need me

I'd look down on you

And watch you burn.

Day 181 of 366: Tired

I feel empty

Lacking energy

Of all the things

That one was exciting 

Shows don't excite me

And games bore me

I feel lazy and tired

It's all coming back

I feel heavy

I don't know

What do I do

Help

Day 180 of 366: Eternity

I guess we'll never grasp

What we always want

And we always wait

For what we should have

Then in time we hold it in our arms

We clutch to it to never leave 

And then we'll see our happiness

To eternity

Day 179 of 366: Anticipation

More than half a year passed

And a a another half to come

I've left what's not desired 

And try to live outside the demise

Although still I bleed

From the woes last year 

I try to give

Myself, the kindness he deserves

And as I anticipate my ultimate prize 

I lie in wait

And hopefully after all the suffering 

The goal in the end

Will all be worth it

Day 178 of 366: Switch

Maybe it's time I stop the chase

Of those who have long run away

Maybe their friendship wasn't worth it

Because if it was, it wouldn't be that quick

Maybe I get some explanation 

Or even a chance to defend

But when all those are forsaken 

You know where you stand with them

So I let go of those who gave up

And never will I look back

But remember in your time of need

I will never switch

Day 177 of 366: Frustrate

After all I've heard 

And words that's said 

Rumors spread

And endless dread

Did anyone think

One would still

Have the energy

To form a smile

And mean it

Because if you had heard

Things that were said

About me that wasn't true

I assure

It would frustrate you

Day 176 of 366: Loose

Maybe if I let loose a little bit

Maybe things would've been easier

I will not think as much as hard

And maybe I have a peace of mind

Things are not bigger as they seem 

And I wouldn't be losing any sleep

I want to be that person

One who does not think too much

And lives the life

As freely as he can be

Day 175 of 366: Her name

If perfection had a name

It would start with letter J

And it would end in an H

Even though it's not needed

Maybe it would have an R

And two A's for safety

And it would be the name

I've long to say "I love you"

Ever so dearly 

Day 174 of 466: If you told me a year ago

If you told me a year ago

That I would be this happy

I wouldn't have believed you

And probably scoffed at the idea

I won't believe 

I'd smile like this

Or even be with someone

Who's worth those many heartbreaks

I wouldn't believe you

And say you're merely bluffing

To make me feel better

But I was

And still am

Happier than a year ago

Weathering the perfect storm

Then I met this lovely gal

Whose smile made my life worthwhile

Oh to love

And be loved like this

I didn't think it was possible

Only a year ago

Day 173 of 366: Seeing you again

Every hour, minute, or second

That I long to have you near

Is an hour, minute, and second

That I totally feel

Every passing second

Is a torture in existence

Longing for your presence

Your love is my subsistence

Slowly as the hours will pass

Close you will be by my side 

And when the time I hold you in my arms

I'd hug you as if

I only met you for the first time 

Day 172 of 366: If I knew love could be like this

If I knew I'd fall like this

I would bother to mess

Around those unserious

And meet those who 

Simply broke

What I hold dear

Maybe I could've been

More hopeful that I wish

And maybe the world

Isn't as bad as it seems

To find her in this world

Which I'm sure forsake me dear

Is a blessing I hold dear

And it is my duty

To make her feel

The greatest thing

She is

Day 171 of 366: Foot Pain

I hope it heals 

And never come back

When it throbs

May it never return

It may never disturb

Anything in me

And may this pain

Be thel past there is

Day 170 of 366: Different

Maybe I wish things were different 

And they all went well

They all didn't give in

On whatever rumor there is

Annoying it may seem

I just live with it 

I wish things were different 

I miss my friends

Day 169 of 366: Long Vacation

Maybe I never moved on

And all the parts that healed

Were simply repressed within

Still I grieve your loss

Looking for every piece of you

In every corner of this home

Still I feel like one day

You'll simply enter the gate

And you we're simply on a long vacation 

I wish that was the case

Day 168 of 366: Sleep

I'll take the longest rest 

That I will ever have

So I'll make the most of it

By sleeping all day

Day 167 of 366: Now

I feel falling harder now

As I never been before

Maybe I'm scared 

To lose what I held on to

Might disappear 

I can only wish

For a better now

Day 166 of 366: A Kid Again

Still I bear the weight of waiting

Six months from what I am wanting

Slowly I'll acclimate to what I desire

Which makes it all worth it to time

Then I'll hold it in my hand 

As if it was always mine

Use it to my heart's content

Enjoying what I want

This is the weight I must bear

Patience is the name of the game

But once Christmas salary comes

I'll be a little kid again

Day 165 of 366: Traffic

Frustrating I sit here

Waiting for the light turn red

As the light in the sky bleed

Still I sit in agony

Then the hot air hits my face

Along with the humid space

I feel the sweat dripping

As the vehicle starts moving

In motion of the jeep

The air became cold suddenly 

And those near went out

But still I sit about

The space remains cramped

As my leg feels clamped

As my left leg die

It was all in my mind

Then another stoplight happened 

So another stop started 

But it was over quicker 

As my mind wander

Day 164 of 366: Asam

Ngayong meron na akong kakayahan

Abutin ang minsang inaasam

Bakit nanunuot ang agam agam

At tila hindi ito makamtan

Siguro nga naman

Sana lang naman

Aking maranasan

Na nahahawakan

Ang pinakaaasam

Day 163 of 366: Hangin

Siguro isang araw

Kaya ko na talaga

Na ang pake ay mawala

At iba'y di iniinda

Na hindi na ko nagiisip

Ano na ang tingin sa akin

At anuman ang kanilang sasabihin

Ay tila lista na lang sa hangin

Day 162 of 366: Liwanag

Galit nanatili

Timpi kinimkim

Wala namang kasalanan

Ngunit pinagbabayaran

Nawalang mga kaibgan

Akin nang pinabayaan

Basta hayaan akong manatili

Sa aking sarili

Malinaw saan nagmula

Mga sugat na iniinda

Bagama't nagpakilala

Bakas pa ang pangungulila

Sabay tingin sa kinabukasan 

Na aking inaasahan

Liwanag sa kadiliman

Kailan mararanasan

Day 161 of 366: All along

Maybe happiness

Is right around the corner

And I never noticed 

Because I never

Even bothered to check 

Maybe all this time

All the love in the world

That I was looking for 

Was inside me

All along

Day 160 of 366: Maybe for once

Maybe for once

I wanted to be appreciated 

Not because other were lacking

But because it's just me

To be appreciated for simply existing 

Not because of what I can provide

To not repeat myself 

For a hundred million times

Before I could be understood 

But a boy could dream

Day 159 of 366: Liberating

And when your body lies

At the end of the day

The silence surrounds 

And darkness lurks

With only a glint

Of light from phone 

Lights the void of your room

Why does it feel

So damn liberating

Day 158 of 366: My Home

I want to be alone

I want to find a secret place

Where no one else have known

I want to dance on the grass

And feel the seas breeze

And eat all the fruits and berries

That I will ever see

I want to embrace the quiet

Where everything but the wind is silent 

And all the comfort in world

Are within my own accord 

I want that solitude 

Embracing that fortitude

And when I embraced being alone

I'll come back to you, my home

Day 157 of 466: Matapos

Sa pagkagat ng dilim

Paligid ay nalimlim

Kapaligiran ay tahimik 

Bahagyang liwanag ay sumilip

Siguro'y nakasanayan

Trabahong tuluyan

Hindi na iniinda

Basta lahat matapos na

Day 156 of 366: Panahon

Lahat ng pawis na idinilig ko sa lupa

Ay hindi pa namumunga

At bawat dugo na tumagaktak

Ay wala pang kapalit na pumapatak

Bawat pagod at puyat

Ay hindi nasusuklian sapagkat 

Alam ko pag ganito

Hindi ko pa panahon 

Day 155 of 366: Again and again

They never go away don't they?

Those voices in your head

Telling every sin

You have committed 

And every action

That never came to fruition 

Those rumors that aren't true

Still heavily bothers you

And all the lies told

Still in your mind hold

I want them out to be honest 

And live from the farthest

Maybe start all over again

Day 154 of 366: Happy First

To all the meals we'll share

And all the things we'll care

Movies we've yet to see

And opinions we'll disagree

This is the first step to forever 

As I live beside you tender

This is the first of many funerals

Of the people that we will be

May our love last 

Like the smile on your face

And I am will forever do my part

In keeping it all the same

Day 153 of 366: Inda

Nakalabas ng bahay

Nawala ang isipin

Lumuwag ang paghinga

Nabawasan ang iniinda