Not worth the risk

Cheers to those unlove by others

As lady luck could give no further

But worse tragedy lies on people

Who have love given to them

But had no idea how to handle

As they messed up the reality

In which they have long lived in

Realizing the main culpirit reason

That they fell in love with the idea

And not necessarily to the person

So when love fades slowly in to dawn

The idea does not persist forever

As what was mishandled is forever gone

But the scars truly left a mark

As for one may have fallen for the idea

But the other fallen for them truly

So one wallow in self pity

And another drown in sorrow

Since all this heartbreak are avoided

If from the start they did not attempt

If I could have it tomorrow

If I could have her heart tomorrow

I would have no idea what to do with it

I would fiddle and play with it

That eventually leads to sorrow

And I would fail to maintain

The love I often wish to give

Because tomorrow is too soon for me

To be trusted of a heart such glee

I'd fail as a lover I know

If I could have her heart tomorrow

As the sun moving a little bit faster

No good result would come out or matter

Because this was never a question of haste

And what is you eventually comes

I just hope when I have her heart truly

It won't be for the next months or much more sooner

I know, but it will take time

The heart is aware of the reality

That some things are never meant to be

It wishes not to lie on itself

To keep itself from being broken

It heals and mends through time

But never it will return

In the state of it was before

It will beat for another in due time

When the bandages are removed

But for now let it beat slowly 

Knocking past and never answering

Past is something that knocks

But often is never welcome

As it had it's place and due 

And it had took a lot from you

It was neevr a welcome sight

Especially the ugly parts

They were good in a glance

But we shoudl keep our distance

Because it was in the past for a reason

And bad memories should stay locked up

Overwork

To try to do more than you can

is stupid to an extent

We romanticize overwork so much

Even if it should not be glorified

To begin with

I need rest

There is just a lack of words these days

As writer's block seeps in

I feel like nothing is accomplished

And I want my not deserved rest

I want to sleep on a soft matress 

and forget the things that matter

because we all could use a rest

One way or another

Brightest Star

Send me a sign from the farthest star

Let it shine in light that would kill the dark

And let it reach my heaven above

To show me what I should chase from the start

Light it upon the my wildest dreams

And guide me on these tattered seams

So that for once I know that I am chasing

What fate wishes me of having

Random thoughts (1)

My once romantic fiery heart

Is frozen, cynic far from the start

Where it was beating to single person

But when faced with a rejection

A note of surrender was given

And slowly it gave in 

To the fact that nothing can be done

The world in a few seconds

What do you think the world will be?

Months, decades, cesnturies from now?

Will it be better? or for worse?

Will the sun shine brighter?

Or will the nights be longer?

Is it foolish to expect utopia?

Or dreadfult to think of dystopia?

Is it better for things to stay this way?
Or some changes would be welcome?

But how welcome these changes will be?

Are they for the better?

Or worse than today?

Oh how I dread the future time

That present today is unenjoyable

Cold weather tease

I want to sleep the whole

And the whole day more

I want the cold breeze

To embrace me today

And everything that need to be done

Be finished without my intervention

This thing is exhausting

But maybe it's the cold weather speaking

And my comfy bed teasing

Back to work

Gleamed with happy and joy

Even with an aching foot

The good things keep coming 

But then again there are things to be done

And things to be accomplished

So I should pick my ass up

And get back to work

Light and Shadow

When all hope is all but gone

We can all simply carry on

And hope that the tomorrow we will have

Is better than the yesterday we had

Because the world in never fair

Nor kind in any way

We simply live in this system

Hoping for tomorrow to make amends

If God will give me this

I shall treasure it like a gift of a child

Nurturing, like first of its kind

Looking at it eye to eye

I will savour what is called mine

And push through adversities

And purge of its atrocities

I'll hug it till I'm breathing

I'll take it as I'm living

If God will give me this

Then I shall hold on it 

And forever be in debt

I'll actually treasure what he gives

And maybe make something more of it

Pressure

Pressure starts kicking in

With all the trouble brewing

A storm is slowly coming 

It's a matter of how we live through it

Because the pressure on my shoulders

Gets heavier everyday

And the fear of failure

Seeps in my mind everytime

But the end of the tunnel is near

And the light gleaming

Should I give up when I made this far

Or simply push since it's a start

Of a new chapter I will face

My knees are shaking

With my limbs trembling

I am terrified and excited to the extent

But when did that ever stop me?

Sending help

You really can't do it alone

As the weight and pressure

Can be overwhelming to an extent

But the funny part is

You don't need to carry it alone

As there are people who are willing to help

No matter how you believe that there aren't

Happier

A version of me existed 

Somewhere in he universe

Where this pandemic didn't happen

Where all this hell didn't break loose

Who knows what that person does

In the time of freedom that he have

Did he get more serious in academics

Or did he waste time chasing love

Did he take all for granted

Or did he take the greatest chances

I'll never meet him anyway

So why bother to think

Only thing is that I am curious enough

Is he happier than I am right now?

It takes a lifetime to live

It takes a lifetime to live

Every second counting

Every hour swiftly passing

Everyday slowly dreaming 

In weeks we try on acting

Upon the months we're having

Into the years of grieving

Entering decades of cheering

To the scores we hope on living

Possibly leave a foot print for centuries

But time is as good as we act

Simply dancing on that fact

We'll make mistakes

That we never want

And we have to live with that

Fake it

When the moment of truth marches in

You're gonna be sweaty palmed

Heart beating fast

And knees shaking hard

You might as well take it into account

So that they feel like part of the plan

You're gonna fake your confidence anyway

Might as well accept it 

And fake it truthfully

Hindi ikaw ang habang buhay

Hindi ikaw ang habang buhay

Ikaw ang limang segundong kilig

At ilang buwan na dagdag kulay

Sapat na para tawaging pag ibig

Hindi ikaw ang habang buhay

Tumagal ng ilang taon pa ma'y

Alam ko ang meron tayo ay may hangganan

Hindi nakatakda sa kinabukasan

Hiniling ko na ikaw ang habang buhay

At sinubukan takpan lahat ng ingay

Natagalan at hindi naman agad

Pero mabilis sumipa ang reyalidad

Na mabilis dumaan ang kasalukuyan

At nakatingin na lamang tayo sa kahapon

Humiling naman ako kay Bathala

Sadyang iba lang ang kanyang tugon

Kaya alam kong hindi ikaw ang habang buhay

Ikaw ang bawat segundo, minuto, oras at araw

Masaya kang kasama sa bawat sandali 

Kahit alam kong hindi ikaw hanggang huli

Embracing

I have no idea where it started

Or how it did in the first place

But now it keeps burning

With no sign of stopping

Things that were suppressed then

Are embraced today

Leave

Sometimes the feelings return

But not to entertain

They are welcome visitors

But should always be on their way

Because the last the they stayed

No one was happy to begin with

So it's better if they just leave

Just when you thought

Just when you thought

Feelings were let go

They come crashing in 

And throbs again

Showing that they never left

Merely suppressed

And now they are escaping

Without a clue of knowing

How to handle these thing right now

When you thought

You're happier somehow

Taking it easy

It's not about taking it easy

Or underestimating the fact

But when reality strikes

And starts charging back

Screams of terror doesn't help

Much of the time

So take it easy

And you will be fine

You were here before

And you came out

Better than before

Give it time

Things are easier

When you are not distracted

When the goal is fully clear 

and light is shining near

When your mind is open

That setbacks are part of it

You don't have to

Drown yourself into one thing

Because all will follow

Just give them time

Up from here

In amidst the chaos and anxious

Things seems to fall into place

Not to jinx or overconfidence

But the road seems better

I hope it goes up from here

Try not to crumble

So it begins

Facing another tide

Another set of hardships

Goals to finish

Ideas to brainstorm

Mind to sharpen

For the next 2 months

Try not to crumble

Tomorrow

So a new chapter

Begins a anew

Clueless and binded

Today I may seem

But tomorrow 

I will be better

I think

Writing...

there are days

That ideas comes pouring in

But the motivation to write

Is close to nil

The vice verse occurs

Equally frustrating

Why does a hobby

Have to be this painful

Bothering

Earth is cleansed 

Plants are watered

But the certain unease

From a volcano erupting

Is truly bothering

Calm

When all things are over and done

And it's time for a new beginning

It would not be so bad to look back

While looking forward to things

But I think what will work best for us

Is when we embrace the present

Want

To chase and chase

What you always want

Loses a bit of yourself

In the process of want

So keep yourself in check

In the things you desire

Because what you really want

May be easier to get

And you struggle 

So much for something

That worth

Isn't worth it