152 of 366: Separation of colors

In the name of hate people rise

As if there a common enemy in sight

It is never known what is greater terror

Than to be discriminated by your color

Imagine walking on a lonely road

And someone claims that they've been goad

You are silent yet they prey on you

That you're the suspect immediately, in their point of view

So now they speak of their fallen brother

And they revolt in echoes of anger

Now that they have committed violent protest

You act like you're the one oppressed

151 of 366: Guaranteed

Sometimes despite all the effort you give

You will sometimes fall short and grieve

The one you desired all along

Will always go to all sorts of wrong

Because love is not something often grant

And even if you, it's not guaranteed to last

Sometimes you give your mind to something else

Because even if you become the best version of yourself

You still won't get the person you want

150 of 366: Invisible Cages

To what extent will we misinterpret

Abuse masked as love

As they only care for what they get

And not of the possible consequences

Confront the abusers, prepare to be gaslighted

Give them silent treatment, prepare to be berated

So you stay in cage for a long time

Being punished for a non committed crime

And you wait for the day where will you be

Completely away from this, and completely free

149 of 366: Thoughts of others

Lost between the words said and unsaid

Myriad of words but far too afraid

From the prejudice of others words

But it never occured me how it works

Where the strings that control your thoughts

Are from the other people words

Have we been too conscious of others
That they dictate the things we occur?
To what extent will we be prisoners 

Of what the thoughts of others

148 of 366: Demons of same

Demons inside our head persists

Try to fight, it resists

Then again is it your fault?

To have such troubling thoughts?

Why do we doubt ourselves so much

When the world often does that for us

But then again it is easier to say

Pretty words and pretty names

And when you're the one facing it

You, yourself is helpless about it

I really can't conjure the words to say

Cause even I am facing the demons of same

147 of 366: Existence

In all the days that passed before

It feels like nothing moves forward anymore

The days are counting by fast

And the moments never really last

It's hard to speak of the world

When you're reliant on other people's words

Because you have no idea what is happening

You simply see yourself panicking

A calm mind and heart

Feels like a privilege in this time apart

As anxiety grows and seeps the mind

Wondering if the world would still be kind

Kind enough to heal itself

And purge the ones who leads inept

Cause in this case where the future feels uncertain

Existence feels like a gift and pain

146 of 366: What we lost

What we lost in the process is invisible
in the eyes whose care for you is subtle
they celebrate your victories
As if they never deserted in your fallacies

they care not for the things you lost
and they only saw the fruits you gained
as if suffering and victory never crossed
that sunlight is always, it never rains

145 of 366: What now?

Once we're out what will we do?
Do we run and shout across the meadows?
Or do we go back to places we missed
Do we give our longing significant others a kiss
Or simple leave behind the world we dismissed
The start of the new decade has not been kind
Everyday survival feels like a grind
Will the day come where all of this is simply bliss
Or there is an impending apocalypse?

144 of 366: Bizarro

Speak of the world bizarre
Not knowing what to happen near or far
No plans laid out no ideas of bulb
And they all expect us to stay calm
They hate the ones who speak their minds
As "respect" and "be patient" often draws a line
but is reverence still doable?
How about those we need to hold accountable?
Patience has long hit its stride
As some supporters still won't swallow their pride
The word is in flames and riot
As we all complain in repeat like a parrot
But can we blame if the people are revolting
As they see their family starving?
So what will happen in the coming days
Is the coming of death was simply a race?
Or will the new world come in better way
In ways that things come all our way

143 of 366: Rapture

How do you think the world will end?
Will it be a blazing flames of hell?
Or a slow consume of existential dread
Will we all just fall in a bottomless well?
Where our weeps and horrors will be left unheard

Are we gonna eat one another?
For every moment we risk survival
Is a disease will just take over us
And wipe us out right before our very eyes
Will there be a supreme being in arrival?

or is the world ending right now
we simply could not figure out how
in left tor right disasters occurring
is this how the world is simply ending?
is there a point for today's seeds to be sowed?

however the world will end
it feels like it will before we know it
because how it end doesn't matter
it's how we lives our lives will matter
so don't stay up late thinking

142 of 366: Pain thing

No one came to light the world
nor dared to paint the clean canvas
because everytime someone comes to color our lives
they suddenly leave, taking all the colors with them
so we become the hollow shells of ourselves
trying to make sense of the part that is lost
so we wait and wait for another one to come by
but the one we waited for so long
failed miserably in ways how to color you
so you're all smudged and barely recognizable
then you leave that painter trying to erase all
all the colors they tried to impose on you
so there you are sick of all these failed people
so here you are a white canvas all alone
a mixture of everything and nothing
of everyone you ever loved. 

141 of 366: Ever since

The days that passed by passes like a flash
But still I go back to where I met you first, the alley
Funny how much difference a year makes
When it feels like the world revolves around me
But such selfish mentality changed when I saw you smile
And it has invaded my mind ever since

It has been my joy to see you everyday
You stand out in a crowd, out of everyone
Your eyes and voice never cease to mesmerize me and
The way you kept your hair kept me fascinated by it
As my fascination for you never changed and never has
 I just hope you're happy as I have been
In the days that you appear in my line of sight that 
there are times I cannot look  away
And it has been like that ever since

140 of 366: Flames

Had the flames of revolt extinguished

that men of faith had their hope faded

with the sky and sun upon us falling

one day we'll wake up, trumpets blowing

the one who are supposed to lead

are clueless and knowledge dread

how come in the matter of life and death

we are lead by the most incompetent

So we pray and pray for a miracle to happen

that something good happen so sudden

because if we wait and wait what happens after

is unknown, as we're all lambs to slaughter
may we survive these trying days
and stood up for tomorrow's race

139 of 366: History of ours

The future of ours is yet to be written
hidden secrets yet to unravel
statements said may be pragmatic
but to our future I feel nostalgic
as the future we may have feels like a memory
I keep looking forward to our history
so tears in time I would ask for
especially for moments I wished forevermore

138 of 366: Special someone

You don't want a special someone
in fact, you are better off having none
you simply succumbed to the social construct
that to be happy, you have to attract
a person who is head over heels for you
someone who makes your stomach butterflies flew
or you envied the ones who have
so you search for that love, that caused you to starve
but everywhere you go it seems far out of reach
as you often give than receive
sometimes the sense of solitude
can make your standards crude

137 of 366: Spared

Evil does not rise because evil exists

it simply exists because only a few resists

as neutrality and silence does more harm

than any evil reform

as the get the pass to do what they want

no one telling them doing what they can't

they shall continue to exist in their domain

as long as the silence of good prevails

evading involvement will not save you

as evil will not spare the silent lucky few

because when they burn the world to ashes

not the silent, the good nor the supporters get saving passes

136 of 366: Rustle

Rustling leaves at mercy of the wind

flying everywhere as rain pours down the drain

and the hellheat we had a few days ago

is now a nail biting shivering close to sub zero

even the sky is crying for what the world has become

as it passed recent memory when it was calm

the days may feel like it was just passing by

but we never know what danger lurks nearby

as for some the present feels like a bore

but to others, they feel like the future is no more

135 of 366: The weather did not cooperate

How the weather did not cooperate

while the human and planet deteriorate

the world in ruins in question of ethos

mother nature decided to mix in the chaos

as heavy rains pour down our roofs

as if this year being a mess needs more proofs

we are at watch at our volcanoes

while the plead for food and money help still echoes

when the world suffers and at its most cruel

the ones we seek help have their stomachs full

in this era of great turmoil

our leaders are enjoying their spoils

134 of 366: Love and History

A heart that is torn is a story untold

where is has scorn and the feelings are cold

assumption of striking gold only to lose hold

of something you thought you could never lose

Forever is not defined by any time

as forever is subjected to how to live that life

as most of us  chased loved in our 20's

peaked and took it for granted in our 30's

It's a sad melody where no one learns

and history always finds a turn

but love is topic of another

and history is a much more important matter

where love will always change and revise

where history stood even when time flies

so to repeat the failure in love is understandable

but to repeat history's mistake is unacceptable

so why repeat the past things we did?

where the one at top is often greed?

have forgetting things became so common

that history and love are often taken granted for

133 of 366: Something, anything

 It feels like time only passes
as there were really no progress
weeks passed but situation remains
now it feels like were just passing days
I guess time doesn't change anything
it's about doing something
Can something or anything occur
we'll take even the most absurd
because nothing seems to improve

132 of 366: A little less than more

We're a little broken, a little more inside
we all have monsters we're trying to hide
there were times that you once caused a commotion
because someone needed to be happy at the expense of your emotion
they never understood, they never want to
they simply did what they feel to do
so grown up we fight our demons
demons that other people summoned
we're just bigger kids with bigger bodies
but still a victim of past adversities
but no one had ever spoke about this
because the ones who caused are your family

131 of 366: hmd.

For all the sleepless nights before
and for giving it always your all
for doing chores when you can barely stand
for every situation you offer a helping hand
the times you sacrifice your dream
just to see our future gleam
for all the days when you feel beat
but makes sure we're back on our feet
you have our endless thanks
because no other act would fare
to every sacrifices you made
you don't deserve just a single day
because with you making sure everything is fine
a gratitude given to you should be a lifetime

130 of 366: The heck?

What is happening today?

as I have no words for it to say

It seems like a waste, these past eight weeks

that no move or plan has been initiated

is there more to their bag of trick?

what commotion will they do leave us distracted?

as cases rise yet no tests done

it feels like we're just passing every month

129 of 366: Seeps in mind

Pride seeps in mind

where conscience may be nowhere to find

and mistakes of the past creeps in

so you have no choice but to stay firm

on the fallacies you through the years

but now all are tearing through the seems

desiring change is no option

as you dived deep into oblivion

and a moment snapped in time

realizing the faults in your mind

conscience strucks in and the world was bigger

but you won't admit that there were error

on the way you think and see the world back then

so you stay true to your faulty conviction

while staying silent in face of the opposition

you criticism is not as loud as your support

so you stay still trying to build rapport

your pride just get in the way

and you won't have other say "in your face"

so you stay silent amidst the trouble

while all you believe in starts to crumble

128 of 366: A garden

Have you ever seen a garden

with one flower standing out?

only a single flower in the middle

the only one watered and grows

of course no, there no garden as such

as it won't work no matter how much beauty it has

as one flower does not make a garden

as one person will not make a group

never compare the things you never had

to the others have

as like every flower in the garden

we all need to bloom 

in order to create something beautiful

127 of 366: Ignorance is a bliss

They cannot feed the hungry poor

nor eradicate the disease and find a cure

they failed to serve the needy masses

and failed to control the rising cases

they couldn't fill our mouths so they shut them up

the couldn't help properly so those who helped are tied up

a time of crisis should not be used for greed

as who knows where this crisis will further lead

the world is on fire, close to burning its core

so why does some cease to join the uproar?

what comfort does silence bring

when everyone around you is dying

by uncertainty, bullets or disease

is ignorance truly a bliss?

126 of 366: No words for today.

125 of 366: What's wrong

Have there been a greater evil?

than good men falling silent

and neutral ones wanting no argument

where the safe space with no peril

is putting the vulnerable ones

in places they could have been down

in sought of no trouble

the poor ones pay the price

where most don't want to fight for rights

when it's not their rights to begin with

does the world have to burn

and we all receive blister and scars

to realize that there is something wrong 

124 of 366: How rain

Pouring rain outside the window

a big blessing for a meadow

but for the ones who lives below

a bridge are flooded, praying for tomorrow

A blessing to others it may seem

that the garden outside starts to gleam

but the ones who lived in poverty

are packing their stuff already

funny how ones minor convenience

can be another's life sentence

when all the richesfell to its peak

you'll see how privilege speaks

123 of 366: Spaces between our fingers

Between the spaces of our fingers
feels the cold wind breeze
it helps us hold things we require
in order to fulfill tasks
the void between our fingers
makes it all complete
but sometimes you can't help wonder
if those spaces will be fulfilled
or held onto by another hand
the spaces in between which are required
to do the tasks in this world
though it would be nice
if the world would stop
and someone fills in those gaps
for a moment in time

122 of 366: Five months passed

Five months in feels like nothing changed

but at the same time, the world has derailed

we have faced something the world have seen before

but somehow we're all shaken to our core

is it the leadership we need to criticize?

or the collective amnesia we had as time flies

as the ones in power won't admit

the helplessness and incompetence they commit

as they continue to blame the masses

for causing the worse of this global hassle

already second month in the second quarter

seems like all are falling in downward spiral

will there be a help we'll receive soon?

or are we all facing the inevitable doom?