Ellisha

Can you calculate the mass of how light my heart is
when you are near and how heavy it is when you're away?
How does your presence always magnetize the smile of my lips
and how it repels my happiness when you leave?
 Can the grains of sand on earth and stars on the sky
 quantify to how many times you cross my mind?
I may never fully comprehend how things in the world works
nor how most of it matter but
what I know is that every time you walk in the room,
 my mind becomes blank and filled with thoughts
at the same that it has become impossible to determine how one began
and when did the other one ended.
Few months that I know you
 has been the best ones so far that
the future ahead is what I am nostalgic of
and I look forward to the past that may come.

40 days

it's been forty days since you left
but all the scars are still deep etched
you shock us all when your heart stopped
and ever since then we could only fall apart

I still remember that dreaded night
a hard cough disturbed my peace
and there you are, fighting to breathe
we did are best to save you, but we lost the fight

I was the one you last embraced
and till now I feel the falling grace
how heavy you got when I carry you
knowing that it was our last embrace

You always loved the purple color
but it has become you last demise
as I watch the life escape from you
your face turned to your favorite color

Recalling those moments I still feel weak
As beside you then, I could do nothing but weep
you were at our grasp
but we lost you in a single gasp

now all I can do is accept your fate
that destiny has another tale to tell
but the pain inside will alway throb
when every seventh day of the month comes

but forty days has already passed
it feels like yesterday, it was too fast
still now it's hard to take
but we'll build upon from what you made