A week back to work

    I'm still shaking off some rust to be honest. But I managed to finished something that I was putting off for a couple of months now. It's easier than it seems actually. I wonder what wonders could I have done if I didn't spend most of the time whining about the circumstances. But yeah it ultimately worked out and I hope this year will be kinder to me compared to the last two.

    

    Some traumas of mine arose this week and it shows that I am far from healed. It's a process but I am working on it. I still feel pretty anxious about this year since big exams are coming. I hope to pass it though a part of me knows I will pass either way but still I'm scared since it's unfamiliar to me. I feel like bigger things are coming which is why I have this sense of uneasiness as well as excitement moving forward.

    A close friend of mine is finally graduating this year and I could not be any happier for her. I wish better things for her also this year. 

    I was supposed to finish the laundry today but I fell asleep too deeply. It's season one of Marvel Rivals and I'm looking forward to investing on this game. 

    I guess that's all my thoughts for now... I found a new terminal which sends me home faster so I have less stress going home recently so there's that.

    I need to buy new boxers.

Post Vacation Blues

I don't feel like going to work tomorrow. Maybe it's the fact I have to wake up early and go home late or maybe the fact I have to do a lot of things then. But the bottomline is, the past two weeks have been great and I hope to achieve more this year. I am well rested, I just need to shake off some rust.

Entering work tomorrow is my true step towards the new year. I hope this year will be better than the previous two where I was really close to giving up. Redeeming everything I lost is my motto for the year and I hope yo achieve greater heights. Maybe I'll get promoted and higher salary who knows. 

A part of me is sad which I can't explain. I think this is me acknowledging what happened in the past and knowing that it can't be turned back. I got my mini closure but I hope it sticks and nothing bad to that magnitude ever happen again. 

I think I will try to be more open and friendly this year? I want to see what it entails for me. I won't try so hard that I become annoying, but I'll try to give more effort. Since the dissident in our office have left, I hope to embrace a healthier working environment.

Oh yeah, I'm also entering the year with the love of my life. We recently had our 8th monthsary and I hope to have more with her. She has been a positive force in my life and my personal sunshine. For the first time in my life I found someone worth fighting for. 

Cheers to new beginnings and healing for this year.  It won't be perfect and I know along the way I'll encounter some obstacles but maybe this is my year and I'm claiming it now.

The election also happens this year so I guess that's something to look forward too. I will be keener on the candidates and I hope my fellow citizens do so also. It's been a disappointing few elections lately and maybe things can work for the better now. 

For now I have a few goals in mind entering the new year. 1. Buy a new white monitor for the PC, 2. Buy a 1 terabyte SSD for the PC 3. Go on festival mall with my cousins 4. Celebrate Anniversary with my girlfriend 5. Pass the board exams.

I have kept my goals within arms reach now since last year I made a lot and didn't achieve a chunk of them so that was sad. So now I'm focusing on those realistic and manageable ones. I'll try to be smarter with my money this year as well. I try not to think too much about the board exams, I hope I pass on the first try. 

I guess I said enough for today, for now I just need to go to work and do my tasks. From there I will build up my success.

Cheers to a great 2025 for all of us!