If by some miracle

If by some miracle, chance, or twist of fate that you find yourself looking for love... Please look for me. If one day you wake up and feel like you're ready to take a leap with some. I hope that someone is me. Admittedly, I've been trying to let you go along everything I feel about you. Unsuccessful I was, in many times. But I know one day I'll wake up without a single thought of you in mind. But if you do change your mind. If you feel like the time is right. If you feel like your life has been sorted out. Please take the risk with me. I'll get your coat, serve you tea, and offer you snacks. I'll welcome you back as if you've never left.

Pre-departure

Many months, I longed for something more

Than what we had before

Accepting that you left and closed the door

And gave up hope, forevermore

Stubborn I was, I then asked God

To see you again, for one last chance

And clarify where things went wrong

To myself improve even more

Six months later, he heard my prayer

And there you are, beautiful as ever

How the sun kissed you auburn hair

The same person I'll fall for over again

But as loud as I was, I was kept silent

As I fail to approach what I always wanted

Frozen in place in a place so crowded

I focus on other things on my end

Then the day comes, I muster up courage

To approach you, and left my baggage

I knew then, it was never the same

But stubborn I was, I tried anyway

Now this is the moment I waited for months

I have done my best not to lose this chance

Now I seat beside you near

Hard beats of my heart I feel

Rather than chase, what was lost

I simply asked where I went wrong

Baffled I was, you said nothing more

Then I realize my greatest woe

You can do all the steps of notion

And perfectly execute, your plan of action

Even with perfect execution

You simply cannot avoid frustration

And so as we talk, we drift away

As the silence in this corner was embraced

The bustling crowd of this airport

Is silenced to my very core

How stupid I was to bargain

To a decision you are already certain

But I accept this twist of fate

I already got what I wished for anyway 

Finally, I can close this chapter of my life

No more what ifs, or maybe wrong time 

Six months of agony was finally over

My made up romance, drains in the sewer

And so I sat beside you diligently

As I wait for the plane to arrive

I may never get my perfect ending

But atleast the next 10 minutes are mine

You sounded better in my head

Maybe you weren't meant to be together

And the idea of that person

Was merely imagination

It was never mutual

It was never moving forward

You made a book out of a sentence

Now the plot has nowhere to go

To live and accept that it's not them

That you'll end up with

Eases that pain bit by bit

You never stood a chance

Because you were never given 

It was all in your head

Purely one sided

Now you live with that reality

And move on

Out of your head

And into the world

Live, just for today

Shhhhh settle down

Let your body sink in

In that age old mattress

Hush! Your wandering thoughts

Feel things deeply

And succumb to the feelings

Embrace it all today

The shame, exhaustion, and anxiety

Hold on to it and slowly let go

One day it'll be over

Better than today

But for today, live