Maybe soon

A sense of purpose is drifting

As the end is only beginning

A new step is about to unfold

Another story about to be told

And it shivers me more than cold

Maybe things will work out

Not just immediately

Bothered but letting go

Trouble I get always back then

The rage within me stays

How I wish I knew to stand up for myself

So that my rage weren't projected

On the peopl who genuinly cares

I wish I had ben braver then

So that I have stopped what I hate

Troubling the past may seem

I can only move forward here

Hoping to meet better people 

As I've experienced the worse ones already

And may the ones who I've hurt

In my process of healing 

Thrive in times where they need most

Cause they deserve it all

I just wish I didn't hurt people

When I am hurting as well

I could never forgive the ones

Who did me wrong in the past

So it's only fair

If the one I hurt do the same also

But I wish for all of us to move forward

And get the peace we rightfully deserve

Up from here

It worked better than expected

I felt the large boulder on me

Is finally removed

Finally the finish line is clear

And the end of the tunnel brims

I hope we only go up from here

Scary

It's scary to be honest 

To face the same thing again

And take the hit

That I took back then

But maybe this time I'll win

And things work out

Still I'm shaken to my core

Because what if the same thing happen again

I don't think I can handle it

But as they always say

There is only one ay to find out

This far

It feels suffocating

Of all the things I need to manage

To the bumps along the road

I feel like its draining me more

And the enthusiasm I once had

Just wishes for things to just end

Just like that

Slowly I lose my passion

And it hurts when you lose it

When you came this far

Care

I fear the day that I won't care anymore

Where all the love in me is no more

When I would watch the world burn

Then simply shake my head and turn

Lately it feels like that 

Where verything I do falls flat

I hope to shake off the feeling

And don't slowly turn me cynic

Generational leap

Maybe somewhere deep down

I wished someone talk to me that way

Someone could have understand

And someone actually listened

That's why we break the cycle

And we stop doing the things

We wish that were not done to us

Tenses

We scour the years looking back

And looking forward

Hung up on past mistakes

And hope of the future

When we could live in the present

Well even I struggle to live in the moment

Feeling trapped in both tenses