Closing May

 The month is over and gone

And toughest days to come

But we made it this far anyway

Why not fight for a better day

Act

So then past mistakes catch up `

And bites us in the back

May this be a lesson of such

That always first think and act

Heartbeat

Light surrounds the room

And I could see only you

In every other lifetime there is

I'd choose you in a heartbeat

Waiting and hoping

We waited and waited without acting

And now we fell flat on our faces

When we mustered the courage 

It was then too late

But looking back maybe

I was even early so an extent

Regardless of anything

Kind of hoping

That the future will smile wider

Brushing off

In the light of million stars

I'd still dream of you afar

Even though the flame is extinguished

There are days still to relish

While the idea of romance

Of ours has lost its chance

At the back of my mind

I still wish fates would be kind

But I have to take the toll

And respect the words foretold

These feeling may brush off someday

But I guess today is not the day

It won't die, but it will stop

Some flames refuse to die

We simply keep them inside

It's not that I will not like you tomorrow

It's just futile now to show

This may keep throbbing for you

But that is all it will ever do

It will never expressed what was turned down

Even if with tears we drown

We live with the things we do not want

As we hope for things that we cannot

Have even in a million years passing

You simply accept the fate weaving

Numbing

It feels numbing to think

Of the things needed to be accomplished

My creative mind is running short

As of the moment

Final push

The last few days are always tough

Inside of you, it will take much

Running towards the finish line

Tasks would not be so kind

Hoping the struggle would be mild

Is a wish we'll never find

Because this will go as a struggle

And we all have to crawl to the goal

Unfair

Final days of the semester

Feels the highest toll

It was never really easy

From the beginning

We simply crawled the thing through

It was really tough

And college should be difficult

But difficult is vastly different

From being unfair overall

Dream

We could only dream of what could have been

And dream of every possibility

But looking back even further

People don't stay by loving them harder

Moving forward

The petals never rained down for us

And it is not us whom they throw rice

Church bells never tolled 

If only then we were told

Succeeding days will have to go on

Even without the one I used to think

I could not live without

To the friends we fell for

The perfect can be tainted 

And the clear can be blurred

In all the time you lent to build

Now you will fall short

The years of foundation

Took moments to crumble

Kinda wished that beat of the heart

Was never toward someone I already love

Rather someone whose memories I yet to have

So that the love lost

Is not missed most

Tiring

The things just don't add up

And they don't work in favors

Everything is tiring

Just end the semester already

I miss you

Not in a romantic way

But in a friendly type of way

The way to you I confide

And value your opinion when to decide

The lame jokes you always laugh at

And simple gossips that we mock

The inside jokes only us know

And the directionless conversations

Those late night thoughts

Are all for naught

And things got awkward

To the point of no going back

I kinda wish I didn't do that

And simply forever wonder

To the things that might have been

Rather than losing you forever

To the point of no return

Half assed

If you cannot do the task

Just admit that simple fact

Instead of doing a work half assed

And a stupid sloppy job

I hate this

Close to end

The next few weeks will be rough

And the upcoming months are also tough

But the end of the journey will come

And this old chapter will soon be sum

The next chapter already awaits

Even though this has more space

To give in the future struggles

And to push for each encounter

Days suck

The days suck

And there is little

Good to look forward to

Oh well

Things will get better

I hope

Top of my head

In all the right place and time

And all the things done right

When the stacks are against you

And the system want you to lose

The best thing you can do is crawl

Fight and punch and claw 

And hope the end of the tunnel light

Is what you will see

And after the arduous fight 

You wish to cone out victor

First half

First half of the year is going strong

As I got the thing I manifest

Those I only wish and long

Are now lying on my hands

But all of these are material thing

In which time will fade away

So in the second half, I pray

That the connection and longing

Would be the one fulfilled

A little time

A little time I need to check

Myself in falling again

Because all the wrongs I made before

Are from the bursts I had then

But what was clear now

Is that they were not for the sake

Of the feeling of love

Rather it is truly genuine

Towards that person

It gets better

It gets better everyday

When you lose all the ache

And brush off all the pain

They may last long

But not forever remain

There are limits

To how much you let

Something hurt

And it is on your power

To erase it

Since it feeds off

You in the first place

Sunsets

The orange sky will break in to the view

Closing in the day sky so blue

And all the glimmers of the stars and moon

Will dominate the night sky more

Then as the shadow of us becomes one 

And there follows the setting of the sun

I hope in one sunset or another

I'll hold you hand forever

Blue

Things are never too late of far fetched

Taking in the memories we regret

And wishing time could reverse the process

And not all we do are in the stone have etched

Maybe in a distant memory

Or another lifetime maybe

We can connect mend the broken pieces 

That we were meant to be

My fault

The lights are dim but no one here

As the night sky fall and I'm all alone

Never have I wanted to sound so bitter

But I will, since some pain lingers

I know deep inside I am at fault

For falling for someone this close

I only wish as time happen

The burden on me slowly lifted

And there I could love again

Because it is my fault to fall

And let thing holding on

Last for this long

Swamped

Piling up things in every manner possible

The sensation can feel suffocating

But I know at the end of the tunnel

There are rewards I will be reaping

Well rested than before

I am prepared for tomorrow

Although someone special

Would not be too bad

Easy

To live in an era of uncertainty

Where tomorrow is not promised

Barely I break in to my twenties

But time seems not to be siding with me

Time is often running 

Maybe it's just me 

And my wildly expectations

But it would be nice at all

If I could take things easy

When luck will come to me

Someday I'll hold someone's hand

Embraced by the booming light and sound

But in our view the world seem to stop

Since each other is all we have

And we'll confess the feeling in side

Saying the things we cannot hide

Then we'll go home side by side

As the threads of fate and luck

In my favor have finally abide

It's still hot

Nothing much really changed

As the days are stale

It rained hard earlier

But did not lasted much anyway

You could never go wrong with ice cream

It melts away on a hot day

But cure the ache of steaming roads

The thirst can be quenched with water

Or simply crave a certain flavor

Soothing the tongue and mind

From the stupid heatwave

Nothing could go wrong

On eating an ice cream

On a scorching afternoon

Hot weather

The weather isn't any better

No written outputs could motivate me 

Hot

Days are hot and bothering

No poems here, just ranting