213 of 366: Lost

I guess for now I'm lost for words

As lot blocked my head

Consumed by grief and confusion 

I would speak no more

212 of 366: Shit happens

Chaos in ruins

Left to pick pieces

Filled in their illusions

We're the one in trouble

211 of 366: F*ck this

I hate the way where I am now

Feeling of hatred flowing 

Angered by the entitled screams

Soon I would take my leave

Toxic walls are closing in

As the air is suffocating

Absence of such is such delight

As presence brings despair to light

210 of 366: Closing in

Walls closing in 

Ceiling dropping near

All the wrongs crashing in

In a world so suffocating

Expectations from your birth

Crashing on dreams before

Making you less of an empty vessel

Just a puppet with promise to fulfill

209 of 366: Speech

Mumble gruntle stomach grumble

Useless senseless speech should be speechless

Lying trying buying falling

Remove loose groove demote

208 of 366: Screwed

Screw this

Screw this all

207 of 366: Power hungry

Take the bread

Offend the not well read

Politics is not pythagorean theorem

They decided then but

We won't succumb to will

Power hungry never full

Never caring for actually hungry

Revolt will soon be the message

Anthropos of man speaking

Oppressed today with stomach grumbling 

Voices will be heard

All will live kings

206 of 366: Hate it

I hate it here in every aspect

Every harsh words and every gaslight

Every point in in my insecurity

Every humiliation when I'm useless

The disregard for my feelings

And emphasis on other people's opinion

I hate it

205 of 366: Conditioned

Growing up I though hatred was something

That we all grow accustomed to

I thought hating things is a personality

Until the world starts doing the same to me too

Cynicality and baseless hatred for people and stuff

Is stupid at the extent

The scary thing is that 

I learned that the I didn't really hated the things 

I use to hate then

I was conditioned to do so.

204 of 366: Own cage

Words of others mean nothing

It's only you who is assuming

Because happiness comes from within

Not from others approval speaking

Confined in cage of your own making

You stray from the happiness you keep seeking

203 of 366: Game of risk

You cannot win every risk you take 

Contemplating on mistakes you made

Accept the fact that things go wrong

And it happens often so long

It's not always a question

Not always a problem looking for solution

You took the leap and closed your eyes

Hoping that you wake in paradise

But paradise is not what you often wake up to

As nightmares often came true

The leaps you made may left some bruises

But it doesn't mean you shouldn't do it again

202 of 366: Pride never knew

Pride never knew the touch of love

As himself could not bring 

To down and compromise

Mistakes he could not admit 

Wrongs he won't correct

But pride still thinks of himself highly

Even though day to day he is lonely

He knew without admitting

That the top of the world mean nothing

If you have no one to share everything

201 of 366: Before Things

Read before you write 

Liste before you speak

Scribble before you draw

Observe before we point

Learn before you teach

Make sure before you speak

Absorb before you input

Practice before you perform

200 of 366: Tired

Too tired and terrified

Emotions mild and feeling dry

As heat seeps in our houses

All of our cool start loses

Maybe for once a quiet place

Where you can rest all day

Without the thought of a chaos coming

Or a disaster waiting

Because the world is pissed

And the people are impatient

199 of 366: Mark another day

It will mark another day

Where the skies will stay gray

And the darkness that looms

Will force people's fumes

They cannot keep us silent more

As history dictates even before

When the people know their rights

There is a better good on the rise

So the snowflakes dance for now

As the day of reckon will come somehow

198 of 366: Spit

Negativity can loom in

As it seeps in the mind

Your words became fiery spit

As if punches that hit

I won't say you should be calm

Nor deny the storm

But try to cope with the feeling

Without hurting others

197 of 366: Haunted

Things of the past will soon haunt us

Things we did we were too dumb to understand

We can only hope that the things we do now

Redeem ourselves from the people we hurt then

Move forward and hope fate forgives

As you try to carve a path far from sins

196 of 366: Illusions

Planning the futre now feels stupid

As we all know that tomorrow is not promised

But we didn't know it would come to this

Such stupidity ravaged the land

Where they could not understand

The direness of the situation

As even in the face of death

Some people would serve their best interests

Fueled by greed and ambition 

They live in their own illusions

195 of 366: Speak up

Patience and time never came to fruition

As doing things, set things to motion

If we wait for something good to happen

What will we do everything in between?

Do you think we enjoy freedom?

Just because we act seldom?

That it came to us on a silver spoon

Oppressors getting tired soon?

No.

They fought and speak of oppression

And stood up citing revolution

So when you think your voice is small

You're not looking at the bigger picture at all

As collective we have the power

To bring down those we put in power

So no matter what, they say that you should only listen

Speak up, let your voice be heard

194 of 366: Jar

Never have a jar been filled with flames 

Unable to contain the escaping blaze

As the jar is surrounded by oil

Waiting for a fire run its course

But the jar can let go of the flames

Just open it's lid up

And the flames will escape as steam

Avoiding the oil in blazing 

And stops the jar from corroding

No one really knows why the jar

Insists on keeping the flames

Maybe the only thing that was hurting it

Was the only thing giving it a purpose

It never made sense for anyone

Even to the jar 

Even though he's the one hurtinf

193 of 366: Murmurs

There may be voices in your head

Saying the most horrible things muttered

They may be impossible to silence

That you live alongside their presence

They never really shut up

You just learn to cope up

192 of 366: Songs of woe

Songs of woe haunts the land

Where free speech has lost its grant

Most have been silent in fear

Holding all their precious life dear

But when the cowards stop to cower

And collective realize their power

All those mighty will start to fall

next to one another like a domino

As they are no host to themselves

Merely lapdogs and followers

191 of 366: Certainty

Wind is cold yet it feels hot

Weather today is hard to understand

I guess the days feel so uncertain

That the body feels random pains

190 of 366: Over matter

Mind over matter as they say

And I feel it all over again

As yesterday remembering my father's death

Made me feel as thoroughly weakened

But today I feel better

As If I could run a mile

I guess when grief takes you over 

Just let the rainy days pass by

189 of 366: Grief Form

It feels like a yesterday 

When we lost him

As our memory keeps refreshing

We feel the pain all over again

Approaching a year since he died

Our bodies feel like weakened

As our thoughts are troubled

We feel sick all over 

But no symptoms whatsoever

I guess grief comes in many forms

Ours came as heavy boulders

As if we bear the weight of the world

And we could not define it with words

So our bodies respond 

To the grief we have

And as we lie on bed all day

We miss him still all over again

188 of 366: Quiet

The quiet nowadays is never calming

It's never the one then reassuring

Because the silence brings inevitable

The inevitable coming of storm

No one knows what will happen next

And the people of the world desist

Stupidity rise and hard headed idiots

Makes you feel sorry for horror movie characters

So now we wait for a miracle

Because we completely gave up on our leaders

187 of 366: Write and write

We write and write for all we want

But sometimes ideas just won't come

They stay stagnant, better in our heads

Then those ideas barely gets leads

So they stay in our heads better that way

Where the will never be tarnished ever again

186 of 366: Unfolding

History unfolds on our very eyes

Where we are fed by lies

It's a chore to discern the truth

Today justice feels crude

And we have no one to go to

So when your backs meet a wall

You have no choice but to carry on

When you feel like being silenced 

It's a war cry that you need to fight

185 of 366: Meet someone

I hope we meet someone

Who never gets tired of us

Who never stop loving our poems

And always loving our words

May never get tired

Of loving us daily

Even in the days

We don't deserve it

I just hope all have one

Someone to confide their fears

And a safe place for secrets

184 of 366: Confusion

In amidst confusion there is chaos

As the world loses its balance to discord

Opportunists take over this

And do things for their own accord

Then the lowest of the low

Struggle to make ends meet

While the powerful above

Keeps on getting rich

And worse is how we are treated

Like experimental guinea pigs

They couldn't come up with a good plan

So they keep testing us

Not knowing that our patience 

Will soon reach it's end

And the people shall show

How much power they have

183 of 366: Selfish

You have trespassed your rights too far

That they have met the point of abuse

And now your actions caught up

You act as if you're the one used

You pity yourself as you face dangers

When in fact you put others in that situation first

Now you whine and whine of the privilege lost

Not seeing that you went too far

I never thought someone could this selfish

Until I saw you bare

One day all will lead up and caught up

Best of wishes for you then